RAIMI, Halsey - 1-800-SADBOYHOURS lyrics

Yeah like
I don’t-I don’t know who I wanna be ya know
I don’t know if I wanna be alive
I don’t know if I wanna be dead
I don’t even know if I wanna fall in love
Cause like i been hurt so fucking much
That my mind warped in a sense
Where it’s like
I don’t know if I can ever be loved
I can love myself i could try
But would anybody like fucking
Love me for me? Cuz I don’t think they will
I really don’t like
I had somebody she was sorta like my drug
I was addicted to her
I couldn’t get enough of her
But when she left I went crazy
I thought about suicide i felt alone
I don’t think I could ever
Love somebody the same
I don’t think I could ever be loved
That’s just me being honest
I just don’t know i really just don’t know

Like will I ever be loved?
I just want that security ya know? I’m tired
Tired of thinking about suicide
I just- I don’t know like
I’m going crazy i know that
I fuck up but I love you more than
I could ever love myself i don’t know
I don’t know how I should think
To be real with you
I don’t even wanna be alive
I put up a false wall of
Hope and security when I’m alone
Ya know, I don’t know
I just want to be loved
I just don’t think I could i love you
And that’s all I really wanted you to know
When I’m gone please just know that I
Love you and I love everybody
But I just never felt the
Same love being received, ya know
Remember me