Rehab - God I Don't Know Why lyrics

As I continue to sink
Into uncontrollable depths
Of how it's feeling written
Into undesirable steps
Descending miraculously
Disappearing through future reasons
My reaction is unmemorable that I recall
Some sick satisfaction stomping
Myself to death
Drowning my face in sewer water
Pulling out my hair
Cuz my mind is a substance
That the world alter i inhale pollution
Regurgitate meaningless fluids
And ruin incoherent consumption
My functions constantly ruin
The future holds nothing for me
But an unknown tombstone
My possessions will possess some evil
Guess I won't die alone
Until they reach a positive end
And it's a loss, so bliss to see
That I can't feel even if it's 300
Volts of electricity living in mayday
666 notches in left field
Life is a living battle to kill for
I stay at ease with my 32 degree arteries

God I don't know now god I don't know
God I don't know now god I don't know

Attempting to reach the bottom of
A fifth of Beefeater
Red breeder, bad ass cheater
Low class urchin, miss merchant
Church and praying and I be ology
Searching for solitude and sin
Live according to truth
Little devil perching on my shoulder
With the slaughter thoughts
Caught hell since the first time pop fell
Release me from my cell
Fell vic to sick surrounding
I chose how it goes
Weaker living for sneakers and reefer
Finding the climb out of this hole deeper and
Steeper than I care to take on
I wallow in a fuck up
Puff hollow swallow no pride
Going off half cocked at the
Smallest sin I call
No sorrow, I don't beg I steal and borrow
Pay you back if I live like Adam did
You can see by my rib
Forget legit my way is a garnish
My reputation's tarnished
When my time knocks I'm probably in
A pine box with no varnish

God I don't know now god I don't know
God I don't know now god I don't know

The deity never contacted me
I dwell amongst the shadows of civilization
Writing my own revelation in
The book of altercation
Vocal it for salvation
A vocal less probation have
Me vacating this operation, sad elation
Design by yours truly
The architect for the sinner won't
Let your planet off
Give me the blues, soothing
Silence awake it'self
From when I wear depression like an ornament
And smoke another cigarette and go concurrent
The violent undertow, the sirens calling me
To the isle of Oblivion
Ancient as mastodon informing
To the negatrons
Hittin second millennium and still
Can't see the Carpe
Diem without gang holds of Per Diem
Death I see him
He be watching me since semen
But they say that love killed the demon
She came and offered only treason
Get up out of there give me a reason
I awake only to watch the nightfall
God ain't watching me at all

God I don't know now god I don't know
God I don't know now god I don't know
God I don't know now god I don't know
God I don't know now god I don't know

Earthly lust falling farther
Asking watch me holy Father

God I don't know now god I don't know
God I don't know now god I don't know