Rehab, Brandy Nerud - What Have I Done? lyrics

And why my mind is teasing me
I guess I never win
But then again I never play the part to blend
Cerebellum telling lies, yelling why
Taunting me to die anxiety, suicide
Self prescribe to heal my hearts cry
So why do I continue crushin
Lithium 180 and eat it
Digging in my skin to find
Myself within and make amends
But, I really don't seem give a war frags ass
Pulling glass out my scalp after
Driving off a cliff
I insist to let my anger out
What's that all about
I'm in doubt wondering who's in control
Cuz I sure as hell ain't
I'm having conflicts with my soul
I was created to die so I'm
Living for no apparent reason
Constant change in personality for
Worst that fit disease
And wear it since slate and
Corruption cause a mental pollution
There's no solution, why bother
Say hello to heaven
I'm going to meet my father

What have I done? Oh, no
Where am I going? I can't
Change my mind this time
What have I done? Oh, no
Where am I going? I can't
Change my mind this time

What the Mach 5 flying fuck
I'm stuck inside my brain
A shitty disposition my position sucks
Peeping out my image in the chromosome
My genetics infected like diabetics with
The curse of home alone
When the bullet hit's the bone
Angels and goddesses will probably
Leave my ass like
Multi serve convictions while I
Hit the ditches no matter
Chrome blow out my bladder on the wallpaper
I been living for love and ain't
No loving found me later
Obnoxiously terrorized and traumatized by the
Mush behind my eyes
A pair of creamy thighs and shifty lies
Environmental influences mixed with chemical
Making me cynical
Seeking no miracles, just tentacles
Scoping the life out of
My once beautiful childhood
Burning thoughts in my arm it's all good
Oh word i guess should polish up the nickel
Let the blood trickle
Lay my head back, I'm free baby
I wanted you to know that

What have I done? Oh, no
Where am I going? I can't
Change my mind this time
What have I done? Oh, no
Where am I going? I can't
Change my mind this time

(Background vocals: They push you down)

My parental unit's trippin
That's a typical topic my bitch is bugging
Bangin a brother with bigger feet
I wondering if she's hollering, screaming
And swallowing semen
My mind race, court dates close in
I promise I can fix it and
Good intentions got me this
I reminisce about 25, 12 month increments
What went wrong
They sexin in the clouds then
I was born it seems
Condemned to mediocrity, insecurity
Manipulated by the sadness of my
Nuclear status as ever fallacy surrounds me
Lies manifested since birth
Highs don't gratify
Fetal position, teary eyed
Weary with blurry visions, starin' at static
Got the key to stop the
Madness underneath my mattress
Sorry motherfuckers you win, you happy now
I shoulda thought about this when I was child
Talk about me over a beer next year
Fuck it I'm out of here

What have I done? Oh, no
Where am I going? I can't
Change my mind this time
What have I done? Oh, no
Where am I going? I can't
Change my mind this time