Rehab, Brandy Nerud - Self Esteem On E lyrics

Rehab represents various concoctions of
What is real and what lies beyond the blood
Of the cerebellum and reality
We find that we are only existing in
An illusion of time and space
For all the human mind can conjure is
What we see before our eyes
But we know that one thing is true
This is all real!

Self esteem on E, mean mugs
I see confusion bruising
My mentality is reality, actually fantasy
Can you tell that I hate me, make me know
Let me see me the way that
I should be, please, please, please

Making incisions in my head to find my
Brain and see who's talking to me
Opening my chest and put my heart to rest
Now who can do me better than insanity


Granted be the only thing that's
Handed down to me
Synthetic visions keep me busy
Is he okay? Breathin' that way
Sucking exhaust looking lost, seeming blue
And turning gray
A chemically dependent schizophrenic
Retard patient living in withdrawals
Making spirit calls on
Prescription medication
No persuasion to serenity
Finding peace in mine melodically
She keep yourself through isolation
All else becomes a seizure searching
For help and euphoria
Mentally calling Gloria
Her syringe fucking me until I bleed
My progressive girlfriend
I burn and soak her up and
Shoot her through my veins
Keep her warm, rub her eyes
Wipe her nose when it drains
Squeeze it tight, hold my breath
Slap her hard before we kiss
She's in my blood
I swear to God she leaves I'll cut my wrists

Self esteem on E, mean mugs
I see confusion bruising
My mentality is reality, actually fantasy
Can you tell that I hate me, make me know
Let me see me the way that
I should be, please, please, please

Bloodstream half barbiturates
Half amphetamines
Laugh and hide the cry by any means
Pack paraphernalia
Daily delusions, I'm using the beast within
The light's on but no ones home in my dome
Trickery seed, my ticker
It speeds uncontrollably
Let it be the remedy
I'm dead already, remember me tenderly
Might as well dress for Hell
Bells ring like churches on sunny Sundays
I've gone the wrong way on a one way
And purchased that mental peril by the pound
Fuck the next square on the calendar
I'm out on a limb with sin
Shit's grim, hit dim sight so fuck it
Wired up and worthless
Tired of paranoia, nervous
Yesterday, tomorrow the trigger forever
I could of never have been better
I sit and shake and self-destruct
For what, tell mom I'm nuts
I chose bad luck, struck rock bottom
Cocked the shotty

Self esteem on E, mean mugs
I see confusion bruising
My mentality is reality, actually fantasy
Can you tell that I hate me, make me know
Let me see me the way that
I should be, please, please, please

Alone in my apartment, bad company
How many years it's been I
Been composing blues symphonies
Not to mention the entities that
Levitate around my neural programming
I wear the dark halo, solo like silos
The deep steelo what I feel though
While wind covering
My skin graphs is in a raft
I'm crying when I laugh, oh he have
Inherited the Earth
Why don't the angels sing
Living what is thing
If I'm going to hell what should I bring
Ruthless like Ming dynasty
The woman's work is never done
I put a bullet in the
Flying nun age of reason
Rage is found, cohesion
Conversations with Sandman
Talking to myself as always
Sick dialog see captain's log
You can't log on the encryption codes to my
Madness lie somewhere in
The blueprints of the museum of sadness
How irrational seems happiness
Keep my misery personal
I wouldn't wanna complicate our
Superficial rituals naw

Self esteem on E, mean mugs
I see confusion bruising
My mentality is reality actually fantasy
Can you tell that I hate me, make me know
Let me see me the way that
I should be, please, please, please
Self esteem on E
Demon's I see confusing Bruising
My mentality is reality actually fantasy
Can you tell that I hate me, make me know
Let me see me the way that
I should be, please, please, please, please