REVERIE - Since You Left lyrics

I still remember when I met you on my block
Waiting at the bus stop
You were trying to spit game
But I didn't wanna talk
I was only fifteen and in need of a friend
Next day you caught me slippin
At the bus stop again
Posted with my homie Juice, we was introduced
Mama said: Be careful who you
Give your heart to
And it's true, cause, when I gave it to you
There really was no limit's to the
Things that I would do
At sixteen I gave birth to your son Zaya
He's my life-saver
But his daddy's just a player
They say that love is blind
But what I come to find
Is that love shouldn't make you
Feel sick all the time
And now I realise that this
Love was merely fear now I see to clear
When I'm looking in the mirror
You give and you get, compromise and respect
After all you put me through
Yo I still wish you the best

I've been thinking 'bout you every night
Since you left
I realise I'm better off alone
(alone, alone, alone)
I've been thinking 'bout you every night
Since you left
I realise I'm better off alone
(alone, alone, alone)

You was killing me slowy
But I couldn't even see it
Threats about taking my life when
I talk about leaving
Emotionally tangled by your abusive lies
And I wanted Zaya to grow up
With both parents by his side
Your pride so high and your ego so evil
Deceitful never did I feel like your equal
People told me to leave
Said I didn't deserve it
You shot down my self-esteem
Made me feel worthless on purpose
Said I'm flirting
Just 'cause I'm laughing at a joke
Even had a dress code
I couldn't have let it go
My success without envy in
Your eyes and action
And every time we've made love
I felt no satisfaction
You dismissed my side of the story
You made me feel stupid
Put me down in front of my friends
Why you always gotta do this?
Even spit in my face, in front of our son
That's when I knew, I knew that I was done

I've been thinking 'bout you every night
Since you left
I realise I'm better off alone
(alone, alone, alone)
I've been thinking 'bout you every night
Since you left
I realise I'm better off alone
(alone, alone, alone)

You were never the person you
Portrayed in the beginning
And without you by my side
I feel I'm finally living
I was slipping in the darkness
But now I see the light
And it shines so bright from
Within me every night
I'ma keep pushin regardless
How do you love somebody who's heartless?
All I know is I'm gon' finish
What I started I started
It's time to be a woman, I'm ready to grow up
Never saw myself as beautiful
Until we broke up
Now I'm going back to school
Pursuing everthing I doubted
Sometimes I sit and wonder if
You even think about it
If you even realise all the unnecessary drama
How could you be so cold to
Do that to your baby mama
Never knew you was a burden
Until I stopped hurting
Until I started breathing and I
Opened up the curtain
I know this for certain
I'ma raise our baby right
And now I realise my importance in this life

I've been thinking 'bout you every night
Since you left
I realise I'm better off alone
(alone, alone, alone)
I've been thinking 'bout you every night
Since you left
I realise I'm better off alone
(alone, alone, alone)