Rico (USA) - XXX MM lyrics

I’ve been solo for so long
I just ricochet off the walls
I’ve been the lone wolf for so long
I’m just tryna understand it all
I’ve been solo for so long
I’m just tryna understand it all

I been solo so I’m so low
And nobody figured out or knows though
But I’ve been thinking bout the end
And how it goes though
Will I even ever have a sold out show bro
Cause nowadays I been in a damn mindset
Where I been looking for something
I cannot find yet
I’m worried if I don’t make
It by the time that
X did then my story just rewind X
I been damn scared that he go bam there
And I die so young and no one ever damn cares
See I just want to build a
Legacy and step by step
I get more listeners but somehow I let
All the darker thoughts that
Somehow my mind kept
So I gotta be known fore
In the light I’m checked
That’s why I’m payin tribute that’s
Why I like X
Cause he left a legacy he made em cry effects
Like that I’m tryna achieve
And I been tryna believe
For inspiration I’m looking and X’s mystery
To me he’s the sublime I hope I glisten G
And I been looking for something
Now that he’s missing G

I’ve been solo for so long
I just ricochet off the walls
I’ve been the lone wolf for so long
I’m just tryna understand it all
I’ve been solo for so long
I’m just tryna understand it all

Y’all tell me that the objects
In the mirror are hellish
But I’ve been tryna heal and
Say self care ain’t selfish
But all of y’all still judge you
Don’t need it you’re perfecto
But y’all gave me hurt feelings and
I dunno what’s next though
Imma build up my ladders to get
Out of the deep end
Until then imma keep on waiting
For every damn weekend
Sometimes I feel l’m not real and
I don’t know who I am
One last thing before y’all speak let
Me show you the program
So you know I’ve been all in my damn mind
Overthinking everything I’m tryna find
A way out to the innocence of damn 09
Cause back then I was happy
I just want to rewind
But I just gotta realize
No matter how hard I try
Imma never erase the demons that
Hide so deep inside
Cause they always in there schemin
Tryna give me bad vibes
I just wanna know their meanin
But hey I’m still alive
Barely so I’m in a place where
I don’t know what to do
Man I can’t even write this
Song without questioning who you
Are writing this for Johnny Mac X
Or yourself to seem cool
Just to have a way so you
Can show that you’re depressed through
Hey I’ve been tryna get up but
I just keep falling down
So I listen to Mac all
For that positive sound
Then he died so damn young so
I took a look around
Found new problems and I never learned
To swim so I drowned

But I’m tryna come back from the
Deep trench that I’m in
Cause by his words I know
That’s what Mac would’ve wanted
But I’m in a dark place
And I’m not optimistic
And I know that he did it but
I can’t get through tough hit's, and

Its funny how people can
Change their old ways
Wanna keep doing it but it's
Labeled as a phase
Cause based off their first impression they
All see him as the same
And most people that affected think
That they can never change
And I been going through that
But Mac didn’t do that
He evolved as a person and
Then everybody knew that
He was just like us he just kept
It so real and true that
I related being someone with
Feelings and cool rap
So I no longer feel alone
Just to think that someone else
So respected and so grown
Could feel something like myself
Its like it's a sign of hope
To think he was just like me
He done came up from his slopes
And ended with a legacy
So I’m paying tribute giving
Him what he deserves
Cause I connected to him through
His truth and facts
Mac Imma tell you something: that
From you I learned
That I keep swimming never
Drowning never going back

And I knew I’d come back from
The deep trench that I’m in
Cause by his words I know
That’s what Mac would’ve wanted
He was in that dark place
But he was optimistic so I know if he did it
I can get through tough hit's