Rxseboy - Balance lyrics

Keeping balance is a challenge
I sense the love but then
I also see the malice
Come fill my chalice cause I
Feel a bit like royalty
But at the same time I'm
Feeling so-so no embroidery

I feel the ups and the downs
I feel the sky and the ground
Am I a pup or a hound?
Like should I smile or frown?

I feel intoxicated
Haven't drank in twenty days
I thought I finally had enough
But now there's more to gain

More to lose, more to prove
So confused
Self-abused
Follow cues
Might just sever all my roots
Mind my p's, mind my q's
Red or blue
Dr. Suess
What's the move?
Guess I gotta choose
Thought I paved the path to success
Left behind all the rest
I turned my girl to an ex
And put an X on the stress
I put myself on a stretcher
And left the rest to a doctor
He told me I would get better
But never helped, what a shocker!

Left alone in a room full of body bags
Ain't no dead bodies, nobody tryna lollygag
Working every night
No sleep like an insomniac
I told em they were nothing
No wonder they won't call me back

It feels like I'm in the middle
I'm living life as a riddle
My confidence is so brittle
Don't gas me up, I'm no griddle
I'm ripping off all the shame
I'll keep it handy for later
When Mandy hating on Billy
I'll ask the reaper a favor

Keeping balance is a challenge
I sense the love but then
I also see the malice
Come fill my chalice cause I
Feel a bit like royalty
But at the same time I'm
Feeling so-so no embroidery

I feel the ups and the downs
I feel the sky and the ground
Am I a pup or a hound?
Like should I smile or frown?

I feel intoxicated
Haven't drank in twenty days
I thought I finally had enough
But now there's more to gain