Sage Francis - Message Sent lyrics

I've got some letters inside of my drawer
That should have been stamped and delivered
One is addressed to my ex
It says "I'm the type of man
Who can't be lived with"
One is addressed to my friends
It says "I'm a mess
So y'all can't visit"
One is addressed to myself
But I don't know which personality
Or hand to give it

I'm a God damned misfit, mismatched
But never missed much
Mr right-time-wrong-place with a long face
Until our lips touch
I don't miss the mistrust
It's what got our messages mixed up
Before I rip up your letters let us see if
I can tear you away from his clutch

This stuff's a whole other drawer
From a different dresser I'm
Not ready to address
I went to the west to get my mind off things
I'm already depressed i give up, get let
Down, downplay, play games
Put on my game face
Face my pharmaceutical needs, feed
On my medicine
I don't like the way that it tastes

I go place to place without enough money
To put a bed under me
I share my sleeping space
With rodents, insects, and dust bunnies
I laugh at the mess I've created
For myself until it gets unfunny
But I'm content in the fact that
They don't expect respect, sex, love
Or trust from me

When I'm hungry I can taste it
I hide in the basement
Check up on me every now and then
'Cuz my mood swings low
I can feel myself going down again

Falling off is easy
Getting put on takes a bit of ass-kissing
I'd rather listen to myself
Flop on the ground
Than hear the sound of a mattress spring
I rap and sing and talk and write
And often type with 2 fingers
The "hunt and kill" method
I edit one third of a word per second

Your emails sit in my unsent box if
You're a girl that I miss
You'll eventually get my virtual
Good bye kiss
The rest are addressed to my friends and the
Subject line is "Just check
This fine bitch"
And the one for myself's untitled
Butit's the same virus

My wrists get slit on your shoulder blades
When I lose my grip when I hold your face
Let it drip on your golden laced silver slip
Spilling all over the place
I'd lay my jacket over the blood
Puddle when we go on dates
To prove I'm a gentleman
Peddling my bike at a slower pace

"The sum of the parts doesn't
Equal the whole" she states
Before my parents get home I'll take
Time to find the fragments
Of our relationship
Glue back together this broken vase

Falling in love is easy falling out of
Love takes a bit of practice
I'm good at both without
Even owning a mattress i never asked for a
Kiss without deserving one
If you never saw me cry before
Wait for the next time I wake up
On the wrong side of the floor

I've got some letters inside of my drawer
That should have been sent by now
Sealed in an envelope
One is addressed to my ex
And it says that I feel
Our friendship's a joke
One is addressed to my friend
And it says his ex-girlfriend's on coke
And one is addressed to myself
On a personal note
Unopenedfilled with endless quotes

Whenever I spoke
They'd close me in and bust my lip
Now I wear parenthesis on my temples
Step to the podium and just think
Whenever lonely I shrink, and hold myself
Squeezing tight
Before I sprawl out on the hardwood floor
And kiss myself to sleep at night

I have dreams of flight
But I'm not floating
The ground is approaching awful quick
So I wake up screaming for you to catch me
That's what I start every day off with

I may talk shit, but ain't much else to do
In this prison cell
And lucky for me no one really listens well
Especially when I diss myself
I'll fly away on a pig when
My living hell freezes over
And since I'm used to the cold I'll be
Able to rest my head on Jesus' shoulder

Explanations are in order for why these
Floor boards are always freezing
Guess it'll all make sense once we get
Older and reach the Age of Reason
'Til then, I'll have no reason to sleep in
Not even on weekends unless we're together
'cuz my willpower will probably weaken

Deepen my appreciation for
The current condition
'Cuz I'm sick of always feeling
Like something is missing
I slumber in one position
Crouched up and fetal-like
The couch sucks cuz my feet are
Likegiven no space to breathe
While I embrace my knees

Its off to the floor 'cuz
I can't sleep nowhere else
That's why I write these letters to all
Of y'all but never send 'em
It's better to just keep to myself