SAGE - Falling lyrics

It's late at night or maybe
It's early in the morning i'm not sure
But this forest is calm as I look before me
Above, behind me, and all around
On this path that I'm walking down
When I hear through the
Fog someone calling out
"please, come and find me!"
The voice hollow but loud
I stumble desperately on trying
To follow the sound swallowing doubt
All the way down the path I run for it
And just when it seems I've
Begun to get close
There is something that stops me
Dead in my tracks a fork in the road
But before I can know what's
Happened a tortured and slow
"help, please, "

Envelops me from the forest ahead
And implores with echoes through my head
Like a chorus of dread
The source of it dead ahead
I can feel it but don't
Know which of these several paths
In this fork I'm dealing with go
The way I'm trying to get
Panicked, I can't decide a pit opens up
And as I then get swallowed
Alive inside of it i wake up
It's so cold but it's time to
Go cope with this life
Another day, another dolorous lie
Knowing inside there is no one
That knows what I'm fighting alone
But despite the brokenness
With a joke and a smile I carry on
And bury all of what's happened to me
Back in the deepest blackness and leave
It 'cause having to see
Even half of the freaking
Rabid and cavernous regrets
That attack in my dreams
Is too sad to have to defeat

I used to feel like I
Was wandering in a forest
But now I'm feeling like I am falling
Falling some day I'll look back at
The way it all unfolded
And know the reason I was falling, falling

My life is a paradox at best
Because I'm not depressed at all
But just to be honest y'all it gets
To still be too much sometimes nevertheless
Being on the end of a story, boy
You never would guess
About the only girl that I have ever loved
Up in this lonely world
Who through whatever comes
Never once would I value less
Than my own life and at the same time
Would've said the same thing
It was like getting to feel at home
For the first time in my life
Little did I know
Life would then silently drive a
Knife into my heart
Rip it apart, tear it out, and throw it away
And this is the part of the story
I don't know how to say
Without saying too much

But it came like a punch to the gut
On a day that would crush me
With a pain that was just too much
When I realized she and
I couldn't be together
Imagine being severed from the very
Reason that you wake up
And it's too complicated
What all took place that awful day to be able
To conversate with y'all and make it
All as plain as we all would like
And I apologize
But sometimes too awful to hide
But also too raw to show all the eyes
Is all that this life will leave you with
That's why sometimes I seem
To get stuck between
What inside of me vitally want to
Get all of it out and the part that says
It's hard, but just focus on solving it now
Because

I used to feel like I
Was wandering in a forest
But now I'm feeling like I am falling
Falling some day I'll look back at
The way it all unfolded
And know the reason I was falling, falling

You'll never be able to smell
A rose blooming strong
Through the foggy lens of a picture
Or to recall the ethereal dream of another
With ant truth through talk
Why do I try to get you to
Feel my pain through a song?
Am I just doing all I can
Or could I do more? I used to run
I feel like I'm walking now
'cause I'm too sore to move forward
I would do anything for you, Lord
To do what you want
But in fact I've lost track of what
True north is in this situation
The prison in which I'm placed in
Where all this music I'm making is
Is a visitation between what it is
And what I would like to admit
Which is ninety percent separate inside
My mind til I vent and I admit
If I could've picked a different life
I would have then stood back
Looked at all this crap
And just had a good laugh
Then put that all behind me and
Gone back to a happy life
Wouldn't that be tight? Fact is it would
But would that be right?
Would that mean I never became what I am?
Able to articulate how I'm able to land
Able to stand and endure any storm
Stronger and more capable than I'd be
If fate would've granted me a stabler hand?
Maybe I am crazy or, maybe I'm not
Maybe I've gotten this far down
This crazy way via God either way
Me I'm not about to just give up now
With the sound still echoing through me
As I hit the ground 'cause

I used to feel like I
Was wandering in a forest
But now I'm feeling like I am falling
Falling some day I'll look back at
The way it all unfolded
And know the reason I was falling, falling