Sufferplenty, ilyTOMMY - Betrayal lyrics

Got a couple of close friends
And that's about it
Not even really sure if they are my friends
Just tryna find a place where i can fit in
But it
Doesn't really feel like i belong anywhere

Got a couple of close friends and
That's about it
Not even really sure if they are my friends
Just tryna find a place where i can fit in
But it
Doesn't really feel like i belong anywhere

My past in the way, i'm passing away
Would you even care if i just went away?
Going through the motions like ev-ery day
I say it's routine but it's a train-wreck
I'm a mess and it's easy to see that i'm
Blocking it out and forgetting what's real
Not sure if i even know how to feel
Let alone how to act like myself
When i don't even rlly know myself
I don't know you, don't have a clue
Cause all of my friends keep
On switching it up
That is the reason i stopped caring so much -
Nowadays friends drop like flies
So i don't know why i'm so surprised
When i shouldn't be cause i shouldn't be

My heart aches every so often
My head hurts when i feel exhausted
Nobody cares when i'm feeling alone now
They used to call
Now they don't hit my phone up
And if they do i don't got
The energy to talk to you
When i really want to, but i can't
I thought you would understand
That my depression is taking control of
Me - it's controlling me

If i died would you cry
Know you lied when you said
You would be by my side if i died
Would you cry idc imma take my own life
Idc imma commit suicide

You're the cause of my prolonged existence
Sucks that today i won't be existing
I haven't felt this way in a really long time
But sometimes at night my mind runs wild
The truth is i don't know how to cope
- prescription meds shoved down my throat
Thought what i wanted was the antidote
Lost cause, fake smiles, lots of drama
All of this is getting out of hand and
Ion know if i can handle it

Got a couple of close friends
And that's about it
Not even really sure if they are my friends
Just tryna find a place where i can fit in
But it
Doesn't really feel like i belong anywhere