Switch (Rap), Slaine - Hold Of My Soul lyrics

I got a hole in my soul
I feel hollow and joyless
Grab your hand full of Activin and
Silence all of the voices

Copping, popping pills without
A doctor's appointment
You watched me swallow that poison but
You just called it avoidance
Alcohol withdrawals in the morning
Hallucinations from lack of sleep
I haven't eaten for almost half a week
The branch that leans the family tree
I'm no longer myself
I'm what I like to consume
I isolate all day
Can't let no light in the room
I called you all my friends
Now solitude is my friend
All I do for what end? I forgave you
Well aware that you'll probably do it again
That's enough for the acceptance
Formed exclusively through dependency
You extracted the information, and
Truthfully and intensively
I'm concerned with it's accuracy
Your recovery can't determine my sanity
What's a war without casualties? That's
A love without jealousy
I stride not for perfection
I got drive with no direction
Now I'm sleeping in the whip
Instead of the crib, so shit is very real
Then I took so much Seroquel
I can barely feel the steering wheel

I'm driving on this road that
Leads to dying all alone
Because my mind, it is not my own
My sobriety seems impossible
The anxiety's physiological
I admit, I have lost control
See my hands are going numb
It's getting difficult to breathe
I wish my heartbeat would slow
I was introduced to a substance
And I lost control
Then this chemical property subtracted a
Piece of my soul

I got a hole in my soul
And a knife in my heart
I'm left with nowhere to go
I gave my life to this art
Maybe I'm frightened of dark
Crazy and slightly bizarre
Baby, I'm fighting with titans
Demons are writing these bars
Need a Vicodin, agh! Xanny, white little bar
But that won't wash it away whether
I like it or not so I unravel the clues and
Try to pick it apart
Broken pieces of glass inside
A sick little heart
I'm sick of having to lose
Everything that I build
Every brick that I laid inside
This kingdom of guilt
I been winging and praying with
This contingent of pain for so long
There's really no one else
To finger the blame nah this is my fault
Thought you woulda died for
Barely even knew you in the end
Why the fuck you have to lie for?
Deception of the soul in the highest order
I been burnt to the ground
Left to ash by a fire starter

I'm still driving on this road that
Leads to dying all alone
Because my life, it is not my own
And my happiness seems impossible
It's challenging psychologically
It's difficult to maintain hope
And my feet are going numb
It's getting really hard to smile
I wish this cold heart would die
I was introduced to a person
And I relinquished control
And I won't say I'm defeated
But she is taking a toll

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