Tech N9ne - Happy Ending lyrics

I don't even wanna fucking do this song
For real but, I wouldn't be real if I didn't

I be sittin' by myself and
I be thinkin', "Momma, what have I become?"
All I wanted was a family
But when I look up, you the only one
Losing everything but money
Everybody left and I don't even
Get to see my young
Only happiness I get is in the studio or
When I get to do another run
On the road, doin' shows, get the woes
When it slows
Gettin cold, getting old, but the flows
Gettin' sold
I've been doin' this a minute but
I think I wanna end
It 'cause I'm on a higher level when I go
But the music I be doin'
It be losin' 'em and make it
Really tough for me to grow
All I wanted was a family portrait
See my babies on a ranch with horses
But, I was fucking devil bitches in corsets
I was livin' really good then I torched it
I'm sorry Ms jackson
I'm speakin' for real and I never
Meant to make your daughter cry
But, I guess I'm a failure
With women I'm lost
And I feel like I ought to die
Feel like that I'm rotting away
My life is just off in the grey
How much does it cost? I will pay, to lay
And be off in a coffin today
I mean off in ashes, this
Life ain't after it clashes
If I get blasted
This is Suicide Letters all over again
I thought that I passed it
But, I guess that I didn't
'cause this one is written and
There is no mending
When I'm broke I'm a joke
When I croak I just hope
That I won't be descending
But this ain't a joke
I want you to know that
Tech Ninna is never pretending
Alone in my bed, with a
Gun to my head, asking
"where is my happy ending?" yeah

Tell me how it ends

What about me? Where is my happy ending?
What about me? Is this a life worth living?
You know how it begins
But how does it end for me? Will I ever win
Or does he have it in for me?
Will this stop before I stop breathing?
Is there light in this dark I'm seein'?

I put my life in this music
Nina is inside out
I set my heart out for people
They know what the inside 'bout
Will they keep feelin' Nina
Forever? This I doubt
Can never cry for help
So if you listenin' this my (Shout)
I'm searching for the passage
Way to happiness
But i'm worldly so I have to lay in nastiness
Yes, this is Strange year
Worldwide fame's near, but the game's queer
Sometime I feel like I'm Rudolph the Reindeer
But instead of a red nose
I stay in my red clothes
And the music they said blows
Is on top and the cred grows
Can you resurrect a motherfucker that feel
Like he posses a dead soul
Deteriorate to an inferior state almost
Equal to bread mold
Now as my head goes, wish I could shed those
Because all the times the Nina was shorted
What I bled froze
So now that I'm cold blooded
And hella sick is what the med shows
The tread slows
And don't even think you reviving a dead rose
Yeah

Tell me how it ends

What about me? Where is my happy ending?
What about me? Is this a life worth living?
You know how it begins
But how does it end for me? Will I ever win
Or does he have it in for me?
Will this stop before I stop breathing?
Is there light in this dark I'm seein'?

I'm on the verge of insanity
But I'm competent
I'm breakin' so I pick this one to vent
The reason I look away when you talk
To me my brain is producin' evilness
I'm drownin' in 151 and Rumple Minze
That's how I feel

I sit in the mirror with this
Gun and practice how to kill
But, I know damn well that the people like
Me really wanna know how to chill
This life is about a check, about a number
About a bill
Think about all the love I lost because
My quest is about a mill
I feel like you're stupid
Don't talk to me I'm crackin' up
And I don't mean laughter
I'm full of bitterness and it's backing up
And I live with angels
But lately demons been shackin' up
Tug of war with my spirit
See the blood I'm hacking up?
I love my kids and my
Fans inside I sob harder
'Cause you pay the price for my life
And it's right like Bob Barker
And I won't pretend that it's
Okay I'm no facade starter
So I guess my only happy
Ending's in a massage parlor yeah

Tell me how it ends

What about me? Where is my happy ending?
What about me? Is this a life worth living?
You know how it begins
But how does it end for me? Will I ever win
Or does he have it in for me?
Will this stop before I stop breathing?
Is there light in this dark I'm seein'?