Texican - 2003 (Intro) lyrics

My name is Matt
I'm about to turn 20 years old
I'm different from everyone and I'm
Not afraid to say it
I've been living in the space
Between fantasy and reality
Where the two meet and blend together
It's not just little things like
Numbers on a paper
It's quite literally everything
People, places, faces, words, memories
Days, months, hours, minutes, seconds
After a while you just get used to it
I don't know how it all started
For all I know this is what
My entire life has been like
Instead of looking for a way
To escape I've just
Gotten used to what life is like down here
In my spare time
I do anything any other late teenager does


I play video games, watch movies
Snack on whatever's in my pantry
And I write lyrics hoping one
Day someone can hear
My story and think "Hey! This guy is cool!"
Yep i've always been anxious
I've been paranoid for as long
As I can remember
It's hard to keep friendships
And relationships because
I'm always worrying that I might
Screw everything up and poof they say
They hate you and they're gone it hurts
A lot
There's a sense of dread always looming
Over you every time you
Talk to a person or a
Friend or your girlfriend
Some things never go away
I wish I didn't have to live here
I didn't choose to
But sometimes I look through the lines
And hope that one day maybe, just maybe
There are greener pastures for me