Texican - Real Friends (And The Struggle With Paranoia) lyrics

Stuck in my delusions I'm thinking now
That I've heard it all
Feel like popping pills maybe
Focalin or some Adderall
Now should I really trust people cause
Trust just feels so magical
Real friends know that both death
And grief are part collateral
They ain't know you they ain't know me
They ain't know the whole truth
They ain't know the whole thing
Do you think that your friends
Care about your career
Do you think that you pushed them away
That's fear that's anger
Paranoia sneaking up on me and it lingers
Voices in my head telling me you in danger
Wake up all depressed cause these
People seem like angels
But really they just dangle you from a cliff
Do you have friends, I ask myself


Yeah I have friends, I say right back
Do you have real friends, no don't lie now
C'mon now let's change that subject
But you have real friends that you like, now?
They got your back, they don't gripe, now
Do they stay to the end
When your time's out?
You don't have real friends, that's a lie now

And lord I tell myself
Don't let other people try
To take you off that throne
But my worst foe is still my mind
And lord I tell myself
Let your own true colors shine
But will they answer me
Or are these people just one side
And lord I tell myself
Don't let other people try
To take you off that throne
But my worst foe is still my mind
And lord I tell myself
Let your own true colors shine
But they don't know, no they don't know
I think their truths are lies

Tell me now why you say they truths lie?
Is it trust, an issue, man I don't get you
Talk about a real problem
They don't hear what you say
When they'll forget you
Turn your sides, left and right
Pay no mind, I'm tryna find some comfort
They don't like how you are when you're upset
Is it me or am I feeling the sweat
Rolling down, it's getting hotter in here
Eyes are staring, ears are trying to hear
When and if I turn around the corner
They'll just put they shield up
When I'm on them
I text you on Friday what you're doin
Said that you were workin after 2
Come to find out you were never on shift
What the fuck I thought that you'd be honest
I don't have the slightest hint or clue
Life long or just recent I presume
Hopefully I'm over all this soon
But I'm feeling it'll only just resume
I do not feel these people are loyal
They ain't like I live with paranoia
I know they won't feel a bit remorseful
But just look at me, I am not normal

And lord I tell myself
Don't let other people try
To take you off that throne
But my worst foe is still my mind
And lord I tell myself
Let your own true colors shine
But will they answer me
Or are these people just one side
And lord I tell myself
Don't let other people try
To take you off that throne
But my worst foe is still my mind
And lord I tell myself
Let your own true colors shine
But they don't know, no they don't know
I think their truths are lies

And I know you've been so lost
But if you please could just understand me
Yes I know it's been so hard
But if you listen you can understand
And I know it's been so long
You know all these people really
Just wanna hold on but lemme just tell you
So you should see that it's in
It's in it's in my mind!

And lord I tell myself
Don't let other people try
To take you off that throne
But my worst foe is still my mind
(It's in my mind) and lord I tell myself
Let your own true colors shine
But will they answer me
Or are these people just one side
(It's in my mind) and lord I tell myself
Don't let other people try
To take you off that throne
But my worst foe is still my mind
And lord I tell myself
Let your own true colors shine
But they don't know, no they don't know