The Animal In Me - The Search lyrics

"Hey, Shane, how's life?"
I don't know, it's alright
I've been dealin' with some
Things like every human being
And really didn't sleep much last night
"I'm sorry", That's fine
I just think I need a little me time
I just think I need a little free time
A little break from the shows
And the bus rides

Last year I had a breakdown
Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost
Gettin' too loud
Had to see a therapist, then I found out
Somethin' funny's goin' on up in my house
Yeah, I started thinkin' maybe
I should move out
You know, pack my cart, take a new route
Clean up my yard, get the noose out
Hang up my heart, let it air out



I've been searchin' "What does that mean
Shane?" I've been learning
Grabbin' my keepsakes, leavin' my burdens
Well, I brought a few with me
I'm not perfect
Lookin' at the view, like this concerns me
Pickin' up the cues, right? I'm quite nervous
Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry
And things might hurt me
It's prolly gonna be a long journey, but hey

It's worth it, though
Cold world out there, kids, grab your coats
It's been a minute, I know
Now I'm back to roam
Lookin' for the antidote to crack the code
Pretty vivid, I admit it, I'm in classic mode
Don't need pity given to me
But, I can't condone talkin' down to me
I'ma have to crack your
Nose for crackin' jokes
I'm lookin' for the map to hope, you seen it?

Been makin' a whole lot of changes
Wrote a song about that, you should play it
I get scared when I walk on these stages
And look at the crowd and see so many faces
Like

That's when I start to get anxious
That's when my thoughts can be dangerous
That's when I put on my makeup
And drown in self hatred
Forget what I'm saying (I'm saying)

Where'd the beat go?
Whoa! Ain't that somethin'?
Drums came in, you ain't see that comin'
Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin'
Got a taste of the fame
Had to pump my stomach
Throw it back up like I don't want it
Wipe my face, clean off my vomit
OCD, tryna push my buttons
I said don't touch it, now y'all done it

I can be critical, never typical
Intricate with every syllable, I'm a criminal
Intimate, but never political, pretty visual
Even if you hate it, I'll make
It feel like you're in it, though
You call me what you wanna
But never call me forgettable
Leave you deep in thought
I could never swim in the kiddie pool
Way that I been thinkin' is cinematic
It's beautiful man, I don't know if I'm
Makin' movies or music videos (videos)

Yeah, the sales can rise
Doesn't mean much though when
Your health declines
See, we've all got somethin'
That we trapped inside
That we try to suffocate, you know
Hopin' it dies try to hold it underwater
But it always survives
Then it comes up out of
Nowhere like an evil surprise
Then it hovers over you to
Tell you millions of lies
You don't relate to that? You must
Not be as crazy as I

The point I'm makin' is the
Mind is a powerful place
And what you feed it can affect
You in a powerful way
It's pretty cool, right? yeah
But, it's not always safe
Just hang with me, this'll
Only take a moment, okay?
Just think about it for a second
If you look at your face
Every day when you get up and
Think you'll never be great
You'll never be great, not
Because you're not, but the hate
Will always find a way to cut
You up and murder your faith

I've been developin'
Take a look at the benefit's
Nothin' to meddle with
I can never be delicate
Am I even relevant? That depends
How you measure it
Take a measurement and bag it up
And give me the evidence pretty evident
Dependable can never be tentative
I'm a gentleman
Depending on if I think you're genuine
Pretty elegant
But not afraid to tell you to get a grip
Proper etiquette
I keep it to myself when I celebrate

It's that time again
Better grab your balloons and
Invite your friends
Seatbelts back on, yeah, strap 'em in
Look at me, everybody, I'm smilin' big
On a road right now that I can't predict
Tell me "Tone that down, " but I can't resist
Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist
The search begins, I'm back
So enjoy the trip, yeahh!