The Body - Ten Times a Day, Every Day, a Stranger lyrics

Sometimes when I get up and emerge from the
Mists of slumber, my whole room hurts
My whole bedroom the view from
The window hurts kids go
To school people go shopping everybody
Knows where to go
Only I don’t know where I want to
Go i get dressed, blearily, stumbling
Hopping about to pull
On my trousers i go and shave with my
Electric razor for years now
Whenever I shave, i’ve avoided looking
At myself in the mirror i shave in the dark
Or around the corner i don’t like looking at
Myself anymore i’m scared by my
Own face in the
Bathroom i’m hurt even by my own appearance-
I see yesterday’s drunkenness in my eyes
I sit at the table
Sometimes my hands give way under me
And several times I repeat to myself
"I’ve victoried
Myself away, I’ve reached the
Peak of emptiness, i’ve reached the peak of
Emptiness and everything hurts"
Even the walk to the bus stop hurts
And the whole bus hurts as well
I lower my guilty looking
Eyes i’m afraid of looking people
In the eye sometimes
I cross my palms and extend my wrists
Because I feel guilty even about this once
Too loud a solitude which
Isn’t loud any longer
Because I’m hurt not only by the escalator
Which takes me down to the
Infernal regions below
I’m hurt even by the looks of the
People traveling up, each of them
Has somewhere to go
While I’ve reached the peak of emptiness and
Don’t know where I want to go
I’m hurt now i’m hurt by this
Whole town in which I
Live i’m hurt by this whole
World- because towards morning
Certain beings come to
Me beings not unfamiliar to me
They come slowly, but surely, up the
Escalator of my soul and not only
The faces come into focus
But also certain horrible events just like a
Portrait or a film a documentary not
Only about how I was ever madly in love
But also how I failed people everything I
Ever said
Everything I ever did everything is
Always against me the whole world hurts, and
Even the guardian angel of
Mine hurts how many
Times I felt like jumping from the
Fifth floor
From my apartment where every room
Hurts, but always at the last moment
My guardian angel saves me he pulls me back i
Victoried myself away i’ve reached
The peak of emptiness