Guardin, thebreathingbackwards - what i am lyrics
guardin [Nicholas Jordan Kerr-Carpenter]
[Guardin, thebreathingbackwards - what i am lyrics]
I've been faded in the basement
Contemplating
All the places I escape to gotta face it
I'm erasing faces from my brain
Just to replace it
'Cause I got so much pain in
Here that only I've created
Man, I just don't know if
I can do this anymore
I shut the fucking door on
Everyone that I adore
And only wants to watch me soar
I'm starting wars with the help
That I've been looking for
So I don't have to swim ashore
And ruin who I've guarantored
I think I'll stop breathing
(Stop breathing)
Run away just to escape all my demons
(Escape all my demons)
You don't know how I'm feeling but
The pressure on my back got
Me crying for no reason
I'm a mess inside a body of a man
Implementing pain inside my brain
Is all I can
Do whatever you can to evade the upper hand
Life is full of fuck-ups and I
Know just what I am
Yeah I know just what I am
Mute my sound, let me drown
I'm not calming down
I think it's over now
Like king without a fucking crown
My throne's been thrown around
And time's still slowing down
I'll take it as a sign to
Barricade and wreck my proper noun
It only hurts, with every verse
I think I'm fucking cursed
Tell me it gets better, I'll feel worse
Yeah that shit's rehearsed
I'm too perverse to smiles
So I'm breathing in reverse
Tryna lure my lungs to burst and
Bodybag me in a hearse
I think I'll stop breathing
(Stop breathing)
Run away just to escape all my demons
(Escape all my demons)
You don't know how I'm feeling like
The pressure on my back got
Me crying for no reason
I'm a mess inside a body of a man
Implementing pain inside my brain
Is all I can
Do whatever you can to evade the upper hand
Life is full of fuck-ups and I
Know just what I am
Yeah I know just what I am
What I am is a prodigy (Is a prodigy)
I'm a full metal alchemist
Using reverse psychology
To make myself believe that I am proud of me
(That I am proud of me)
But I hate my fucking face in all honesty
Honestly, I don't think I'll
Make it past twenty-six (Past twenty-six)
Seven grams in the grinder
Where's the fuck's the spliff?
Rollin' sticky 'cause I'm feeling
Like fucking shit (Like fucking shit)
Separation anxiety's just a fucking trip
I find it funny when you
Tell me that you care
You say that you love me
But your love's not fair
Distancing yourself from the
Feelings I impair if you wanna let me go
Better tell me when and where
(When and where)
Contemplating
All the places I escape to gotta face it
I'm erasing faces from my brain
Just to replace it
'Cause I got so much pain in
Here that only I've created
Man, I just don't know if
I can do this anymore
I shut the fucking door on
Everyone that I adore
And only wants to watch me soar
I'm starting wars with the help
That I've been looking for
So I don't have to swim ashore
And ruin who I've guarantored
I think I'll stop breathing
(Stop breathing)
Run away just to escape all my demons
(Escape all my demons)
You don't know how I'm feeling but
The pressure on my back got
Me crying for no reason
I'm a mess inside a body of a man
Implementing pain inside my brain
Is all I can
Do whatever you can to evade the upper hand
Life is full of fuck-ups and I
Know just what I am
Yeah I know just what I am
Mute my sound, let me drown
I'm not calming down
I think it's over now
Like king without a fucking crown
My throne's been thrown around
And time's still slowing down
I'll take it as a sign to
Barricade and wreck my proper noun
It only hurts, with every verse
I think I'm fucking cursed
Tell me it gets better, I'll feel worse
Yeah that shit's rehearsed
I'm too perverse to smiles
So I'm breathing in reverse
Tryna lure my lungs to burst and
Bodybag me in a hearse
I think I'll stop breathing
(Stop breathing)
Run away just to escape all my demons
(Escape all my demons)
You don't know how I'm feeling like
The pressure on my back got
Me crying for no reason
I'm a mess inside a body of a man
Implementing pain inside my brain
Is all I can
Do whatever you can to evade the upper hand
Life is full of fuck-ups and I
Know just what I am
Yeah I know just what I am
What I am is a prodigy (Is a prodigy)
I'm a full metal alchemist
Using reverse psychology
To make myself believe that I am proud of me
(That I am proud of me)
But I hate my fucking face in all honesty
Honestly, I don't think I'll
Make it past twenty-six (Past twenty-six)
Seven grams in the grinder
Where's the fuck's the spliff?
Rollin' sticky 'cause I'm feeling
Like fucking shit (Like fucking shit)
Separation anxiety's just a fucking trip
I find it funny when you
Tell me that you care
You say that you love me
But your love's not fair
Distancing yourself from the
Feelings I impair if you wanna let me go
Better tell me when and where
(When and where)