Tom MacDonald - Hangman lyrics

SuperStaar, what the fuck have you created
Man?

This a warning for the ones
Who say they aren't afraid
Lately I've been coming from a darker place
I've been dealing with depression
I'm more dangerous than ever
I've been drinking again and
Never felt better
I swear to God that I'mma burn a
Bridge and piss on the flames
Mix the ash with some whiskey and
Spit it all in their face
My new girl probably flip if
You got something to say
She reminds me of myself when
I would drink everyday
I used to feel like how I
Felt was just a temporary phase
But now I feel like the feelings
Are fucking feeding off fame
And I don't plan to slow down or
Give it a second to breathe
I push the pedal past the breaking point
I'm picking up speed

In 2016, swear I came apart at the seams
I was scared of the dark and
Therefore afraid of my dreams
But I rebuilt what came apart
With iron alloy and beams
Come fly a plane into my legs and
I won't fall to my knees
Haven't taken any pills to calm
Me down for a month i'm on the edge
And I'm waiting for any reason to jump
Don't take it lightly
I'm excited when they're throwing a punch
I got a list of different
Strategies to bury these bums
Very rarely do I carry all
The weight of a grudge
But I've been barely ordinary since
The prairies and drugs
My imaginary friends in camouflage
With some guns
And I've been fairly military
But my army is one

They've been passive
Aggressive with how they deal with my message
They lack the passion and reckless
Nature of truthful expression
They ain't made of what I'm made from
They've been bruised up and dented
They don't understand the
Underhanded ruthless obsession
That I was born with
Slammed like the door sticks
Closet full of skeletons
So heavy couldn't move them with a forklift
Your bitch probably fell in love
'cause you forced it
Now she bump my records while you
Deep inside a porn binge
I woke up with a buzzing in my head
I don't wanna leave the comfort of my bed
A dozen missed calls from a
Dozen of my friends and my day just started
But it's coming to an end

Already getting dark, wake up with the stars
I don't even know how I got
Home after I left the bar, yeah
I did eight months sober
And I hate that it's over
But the weight on my shoulder
Started breaking my heart
I started out with one or two
And then I moved to three or four
And then I realized that I was
Back where I had been before
Ativan's gone missing from the bottle
Tell my doctor they were stolen
But I know that they were swallowed
Everything I ever did was always
Done with open throttles
All the way or nothing
Non-commitment is a broken promise
And I know that that's a problem in it'self
But you're living, or you're dying, or
You're crying out for help, yeah

It's been a week since I felt like me
I've been starving, but I just can't eat
I'm exhausted, but I can't find sleep
It's been harder than it's ever been
The darkness hasn't ever dimmed
The light's so bleak
I never understood what they
Meant when they said
That they were just the shadows of men that
They had been before they were beat
Now I know that everything I
Heard was for real
When I'm looking in the mirror
At a shell of myself
I think that stress is a contributing factor
The being twenty-eight and feeling
Older than dad does the wrinkles on my face
Spreading faster and faster
If the good die young
I hope I'm one of the bad ones

The day's long
Stay strong and try again tomorrow though
Even if you're running out of
Reasons to ignore the phone
Even if you're running out of gas
Go and borrow more
Your demons knock the hardest when you
Finally chose to close the door
This is not the way my parents raised me
I hope they realize they didn't
Fail one of their babies
This is the result of
A declining social climate
That's original design was keeping
People trapped inside it
Liquor and violence, we suffer in silence
Until we embrace one another and
Find our collective defiance
We’ll topple the giants
I just try to smile through the crying
'Cause I know that
Someone somewhere's feeling
Way worse than I am, and that's true
(that’s true)