Triple Threat - My Head lyrics

My haunted head is filled with
Dead and awful things
Visions and images and the
Feelings that they bring
Heaviness and hopelessness
I focus on this feeling
In my heart and how they want to
Tear me down until I fall apart
I pick myself up and realize that
I'm just living a dream
With a mask on my face everyday is Halloween
Born a nightmare but grew up in between
My tortured soul is just a
Ghost in the machine
Ego risers turn to trampolines
We bounce in the dead
And the spirit's unclean
Refreshing your purpose
We be the push by any means
Sharpened like a trust fall for all to see
Hey look at me I been in
Situations the same as you
It's been a nightmare
What I'm going through
I feel like I know what I'm supposed to do
They say they understand but they
Don't have a clue

Holding my head up in times when
I feel like I'm going down
I feel that way when the pressure surmounts
I am breaking down
Under pressure, under strain
Understand my mind's insane
It's too much, caving in
And every time feels like the end

My head filled with memories of
Blood on my hands
Things you've gotta do just
To stack 'em bands
It's a thin line between
Friends and loose ends
Offering two sets when they true friends
Kick you and all your knuckles
Pressure tightened belt buckles
Hold 'em down 'til they cold on the floor
See they not subtle, maggots infect my brain
Now they all drowning into puddles
Look what I've become lost! Get a grip
AK in my hands fully equipped
Try to leave me for the vultures
I adapt to it
And now it's everything they owe
I coming back for it
Revenge is foolish without plans
And everything easy for you to
See up in the stands
Meaning hindsight can only get
Your mind right
Sitting back in the darkness
Not the sunlight let go with a good night
Stay in your head tight

Holding my head up in times when
I feel like I'm going down
I feel that way when the pressure surmounts
I am breaking down
Under pressure, under strain
Understand my mind's insane
It's too much, caving in
And every time feels like the end

You're looking for the wrong place
I think you found it
Welcome to my dark space
My medulla oblongata
And like a car chase, if I'm the driver
My sanity's so far away so why bother?
I've been abandoned by family
So allfather, is this your way of damning me?
I feel like there's nobody understanding me
Holler, nothing but enemies pulling me
Up on the water
And they hope to take me away
From my son and my daughter
If you pray to God you better call her
'Cause I'm about to bring
'em all to slaughter
There's something in my head and it
Keeps telling me to murder
All my enemies and I'm starting
To think maybe I oughtta
Nothing in my head feels right
Fuck it all instead, real life
I just want to know what
Being wrecked feels like
But I cannot control it
So I should not pretend I might get it right

Holding my head up in times when
I feel like I'm going down
I feel that way when the pressure surmounts
I am breaking down
Under pressure, under strain
Understand my mind's insane
It's too much, caving in
And every time feels like the end

Holding my head up in times when
I feel like I'm going down
I feel that way when the pressure surmounts
I am breaking down
Under pressure, under strain
Understand my mind's insane
It's too much, caving in
And every time feels like the end