Wax - Doin Damage lyrics

It's hard to be sober but
It's easy to be bent
When you got some extra money and
Don't need it for the rent
Got a girlfriend now that I secretly resent
'Cause she takes up all the time
That I previously spent on myself
And girls just wanna have fun
And she be all fun when her job is done
But my job is another thing, 24 7 hustling
She wanting to do a couple things, cuddling
I like to watch movies, I really fucking do
But, I can't stop moving just 'cause
I fell in love with you
And now I'm just an irritable bastard
Like my homie E said a
Man can't serve two masters
And I've got a third one
Chillin' in my stomach
A little leprechaun screaming "Alcohol
I want it"
And he never ever shut up, he says, "Come on
Keep it coming"
And the alcohol goes along with
The music and the women
So I black out on the regular
And it's rare I'm a end
Of the night rememberer
Goddamn, I'm a drunken mess
Maybe that's why I'm always fucking depressed

I'm doing damage yeah, I'm doing damage
To my body and mind, I'm doing damage
Call the doctor
He'll probably find I'm doing damage

My health just ain't what it used to be
'Cause, I done smoked a packed of cigarettes
A day since I hit puberty
And stupidly, I keep on going and buying 'em
And my lungs probably got some
Cancer growing inside of 'em
And it be affecting how I breathe at times
I hit playback
Hear myself wheeze between the lines
I could probably quit if I was thinking clear
But my willpower goes out the window
Soon as I start drinking beer
And every freakin' year I
Got the same resolutions
January second I be making excuses
The leprechaun is a dangerous nuisance
Who sips champagne while he angrily two steps
I got a deal now, which should be essential
To straighten up my act and
Live up to my potential
But, I just can't taste that success
Maybe that's why I'm always fucking depressed

I'm doing damage yeah, man, I'm doing damage
It's probably gonna catch up soon
I'm doing damage
Call the doctor, I need a checkup soon
I'm doing damage bridge

I didn't wanna be this way
Didn't wanna get like this every day
But my formula's something that I can't touch
'Cause regardless I come through
In the clutch i come through in the clutch
I come through in the clutch

I am too much for you ducks to touch
I am illustrious i am a bad motherfucker and
I truly believe that
But, I gave some shit up to achieve that
Like my family and my friends
They don't call me anymore
'Cause when they would call I
Would always hit ignore
I was always self-absorbed
With absorbing myself
I drink it up, drink it up
Drink it up 'til there's no more of myself
And I don't value my father
And my mother enough
I don't value the company of others enough
And human interaction is an essential
Part of happiness I believe
And that's what I've been rapping to achieve
And I did it in a way 'cause
I'm in love with this shit
But alcoholism and music something that
Comes with this shit
When you're living for yourself
It's a lonely existence
And if you talk to yourself
You gon' be the only one listening
And that about sums it up
I'm out of gin and I really want another cup
So I'm out, to the store I guess
'Cause that's where I go
When I'm fucking depressed i'm doing damage