Wiser Observer - Get Away lyrics

This is Rachel, another Lincoln High survivor
This is everybody, this is Chandler
And Phoebe, and Joey
And- you remember my brother Ross? Sure! Hi!
Hey i Oh

You know you probably didn't know this
But back in high school, I had a, um
Major crush on you i knew
You did?! Oh i always figured you just
Thought I was Monica's geeky older brother
I did oh listen
Do you think- and try not to let my intense
Vulnerability become any kind of
A factor here -

I can't breathe and my chest hurts
I can't stop crying and I taste dirt
Clothed in the shower let the water run
Scars on my thighs make anothеr one
Suicide lines writе another one


God let me die I think I'm really done
I am not this strong pick another one
My head keeps pounding and my body's numb
I'm scared and I'm paranoid
The darkness and the silence make
A lot of noise
Leave the TV on every single night
Hollow blue glow is my guardian light
I could really use a hug
I could really use a week
In I've really had enough
I'm hungry and I'm nauseated
Lose a lot of memory when inebriated

And I think real hard how I've come so far
But I really want to start running
Really get away from here
And I think real hard how I've come so far
But I really want to start running
Really get away from here

Heavyset eyes I feel the sunrise
That's when I feel safe enough for a bedtime
An hour of sleep better than no sleep
It's at least what I
Think my logic's compromised
And that's assuming this monster does
Not swallow me whole (yeah)
And that's assuming I find the strength
To fight on my own (yeah)
I just need some vitality to
Tear through the webs (yeah)
Cocooned by a sadness that
Just cradles my head (yeah)
Muscle atrophy man this room is a lot
Hermit in my room I'm ignoring the knocks
Shutting out the world so
I'm keeping it locked
Can't explain to the healthy when
You know you are not
Can't explain the pit's when the
Walls are so thick
Every single shout is reduced to a click
So becomes a metronome just a
Beat to your life
And becomes a little easier
Saying you're fine

And I think real hard how I've come so far
But I really want to start running
Really get away from here
And I think real hard how I've come so far
But I really want to start running
Really get away from here

Interior wintery
Please do feel welcome inside
Pardon the misery
Pardon the mess it's a painful maturity
Poor renovation no expectations of intimacy
Classified blueprints I'm always just
Keeping on me i'll show you a couple rooms
Floor plan's a tragedy
I'll show you my best side, stressed side
A little part of dead sides
Just enough for you to leave it alone
Emotional FOMO
You are not capable this poison work slow-mo
I'm trying to save you time
I'm working pro bono
I'm really not trying to spill
I'm working on antidotes
Deja vu these conversations I've
Had them before (yeah)
Interviews, Jimmy Fallon you
Just want anecdotes (yeah)
Self-indulgence of prying open my catacombs
(yeah) deja vu these conversations I've
Had them before

And I think real hard how I've come so far
But I really want to start running
Really get away from here
And I think real hard how I've come so far
But I really want to start running
Really get away from here
And I think real hard how I've come so far
But I really want to start running
Really get away from here
And I think real hard how I've come so far
But I really want to start running
Really get away from here