Wiser Observer - I’m Scared lyrics

To be honest I'm scared that
I'll never make it
I'm twenty-six I'm scared I'm outdated
These twenty-somethings out here with
Plays in millions
Poker stone face I'm in my feelings
I'm scared I won't even come close
Scared my dreams will turn ghost
I'm scared every song that I
Put out straight trash
And my friends won't ever let me know
I'm scared I won't do anything worthwhile
Before God let my mother go
And a really big part inside feels
Like I should bе doing more
My mother took a really hugе chance on me
And my chest gets tighter every
Year that pass on me
And now I'm going back to
The nights I can't sleep
Losing control and I feel so weak

I'm scared i'm scared
I'm scared i'm scared

I'm scared of my mother growing old
I'm scared I can't keep her from the cold
I'm scared for my nephew here at home
I'm scared that I'll one day have
To raise him as my own
I'm scared I'll buckle
Underneath the pressure
Damn why is money always such a fucking issue
Damn why this house never have any tissues
Damn I was good why am
I feeling all this pressure
I'm scared, I'm scared that it's me
I'm scared that my home isn't
Enough to keep peace
I'm scared that the darkness
Is really rooted deep
I'm scared of what I'm going to reap
I'm scared that these thoughts
Are coming up again
I probably should've seriously
Dealt with them
My God all this crazy feel it pressing in
Got to stay productive I'm not listening

I'm scared i'm scared
I'm scared i'm scared

I'm scared my sister and I grow apart
It's scary how easily I'm
Comfortable moving on
It's scary how there's things I'm thinking
But I leave it off
It's scary how this is nowhere
Close to my darkest song it's scary how
My mood switches on top of the world and
Then I'm digging ditches
Into a foetus, I curl I feel myself slipping
Real tired of the word and
I'm tired of thinking
Haven't drank in forever I think feel good
Dark humour, dead eyes hope I heal good
Starting to hate outside I can't see good
Bubble boy come alive that's a real mood
I'm scared I'll finally kill myself
Get a razor just to feel myself i'm scared