Wiser Observer - Only One Man lyrics

Truthfully I'm exhausted
I'm surprised I haven't lost it
I had a friend, heart-to heart now and then
He said, "Tuma you know my pain
If I had your brain I would've offed it"
I told him, "Don't compare suffering
Suffering's just suffering"
He was my boy, I really cared about him
Shit, He's still my boy I
Still pray about him
And this my same boy, I later found out
My ex-girl has some feels for
That night when I came to his
Room to share my pain
She hid in the bathroom behind a closed door
I know we broke up, but what the fuck
You said you want to be friends
And I ate it up there's so much anger in me
As I'm writing this
I'm sleeping alone and you
Both sleeping by his
And a couple days prior we
Sharing my bed kissing
And touching 'cause friendship was
Hard to grip (What the fuck?)
And I know fucked up both times
But the guilt I've been
Caring don't justify this
You were my comfort I shared my all
How I'm scared for my sister
The stress on my mom
Four robberies, it keeps piling on
I need time to breath
Can I please get a pause

I'm only one man i'm only one man
I'm only one man i'm only one man
I'm only one man i'm only one man

Four robberies, man what the fuck?
Is it my distance from God
Or I'm out of luck?
What else can it take, my minds now at stake
Assuming last year was my
Worst was my mistake
First time was after a show
My stomach was gunpoint
Second time walked away with
Fingers with cut joints
Third time, second break up
Knife point took my phone
Fourth time, four guys
School bag with what I own
I've got noting left to give
I've got no more hope to give
We only care when it's convenient
What a way to live
That's why I had to suck it
Up and go visit my friend
In her hospital bed
But it's hard be there for
Somebody when you feel you
Got nobody and the bottom your
Soul feeling like death
Only one stronger than me is my little sister
Because she don't rely on any liquor
The things that I know
The things that I hold
Mypain on my track's the shit's getting old
The pain in my heart that's all that I know
My path's not on track and
My mom's getting old
Hide your tears and be a man
But how I'm supposed to be a
Father figure that I never had

I'm only one man i'm only one man
I'm only one man i'm only one man
I'm only one man i'm only one man

I'm a victim, I'm an asshole, I'm a king
I'm bipolar, drown disorders in a drink
I'm so paranoid like all the time
Now it's like what is next now
Where is the line?
Everyone's life got up and downs
But my downs aren't spaced out
Can I get time to shed a tear
Just some time to pull a frown, fuck
Love from friends I appreciate it
But the Tuma you knew has deviated
Look in the mirror, practice my smile
Scream in my sleep, terrors at night
Half a bottle of gin I sleep for four hours
My mood's so erratic I'm having no power
Mama, my sister they still keep up the fight
I can't even say everything's gon' be alright
'Cause everybody going through something
Hope you're brave enough to say something
'Cause everybody else
Everybody else keeps bluffing
I've been through a lot, stronger than most
I drink through my problems, weaker than most
God what did I do, what did I do
But I can't blame a God that
I hardly ever pray to

I'm only one man i'm only one man