Wishing - Shimmer lyrics

I remember
When i didn't lash out in a temper
I guess it's the pressure
Or the fear that the pain lasts forever

It was so easy and care free
Now it haunts me it's dark and it's empty
I can't see whats in front of me
Because it shimmers and it goes away
It shimmers then it goes away
You're like a modern day queen
And i'm just a head full of bad dreams
Tonight i'm wondering why i'm still alone
I'm afraid of my cellphone

I know that everybody wants to help me
And they want to know if this is helping
But i can't say because it shimmers
And it goes away the light always dwindles
It doesn't stay

You said lets wait until
We're both thirty five
I don't see our parents alive
Our bodies are velcro
I'm afraid of my cellphone