CALVØN - Too Far Gone lyrics

I've been feeling disconnected from reality
I'm holding back and it's
Been killing my mentality
Yeah, and I've been losing my morality
'Cause I don't know my right
From wrong in actuality
I don't even know what's goin' on no mo'
I guess I'm too far gone
I gotta put it in a song
Yeah, nigga, I'm so gone

Hard days, long nights where I couldn't sleep
And I been reaping what I sow
It ain't no saving me if something happened
I wonder if they would pray for me
Until then
I'll be praying for my soul to keep
Yeah, and I don't even like to socialize
If I been pushing you away then I apologize
Cause I been fighting hella demons
Feeling traumatized and I ain't perfect
But I'm perfect in my mama's eyes
Yeah, and I been tryna make a change
But people make it hard when they
Be speaking on my name
I won't ever leave my niggas
I'll forever be the same
I ain't switching on my brothers
I ain't changing on my gang
But I been losing my faith
Even though I promised I'ma
Do whatever it take
I'm imprisoned in my thoughts and
I been tryna escape wanna eat
But it's some niggas tryna take from my plate
And I been feeling lonely
And I ain't even got no one to hold me
And tell me it'll be alright
And you can say love me, but no
You really gotta show me
You gon' be stayin' my side, 'cause lately I

I've been feeling disconnected from reality
I'm holding back and it's
Been killing my mentality
Yeah, and I've been losing my morality
'Cause I don't know my right
From wrong in actuality
I don't even know what's goin' on no mo'
I guess I'm too far gone
I gotta put it in a song
Yeah, nigga, I'm so gone

See it's a lot of shit that they don't know
Some shit that I been goin' through
But I don't let it show
Some demons I've been fighting that
Ain't ever letting go
And I know it seem like I'm happy
But I'm really feeling low
Them suicidal thoughts and anxiety
Ain't a hoe rapping to feed my people
The music my only hope
My people been walking out on me
I don't how to cope i ain't know what to do
Now I'm use to being alone
Only thing I can do is say
Fuck it and move along
Talkin' about my trauma and putting in a song
But it seem like no matter what
I say they never listen
Only wanted the money
It's really fuck the attention
Niggas put me through hell
Keep goin' back for a visit
Living in solitary, I'm in a personal prison
I'm making it out the ghetto
I'm breaking outta the system
Of dead niggas or prison
Won't be another statistic
Won't be the one that'll die at
The hands of another nigga
Niggas ain't gettin' money
They'd rather pick up a pistol
But I'ma be something greater
I can't be another victim
I'ma be something greater
I can't be another victim and that's on gang

I've been feeling disconnected from reality
I'm holding back and it's
Been killing my mentality
Yeah, and I've been losing my morality
'Cause I don't know my right
From wrong in actuality
I don't even know what's goin' on no mo'
I guess I'm too far gone
I gotta put it in a song
Yeah, nigga, I'm so gone