​epitomeoffailure, autumndropsdead - ​My wounds won't mend lyrics

Rest my arms (Rest my arms)
Where they cannot ever be harmed
Cold to the touch

There's certain days where I
Haven't been better
But when the sun goes down
I know tomorrow will be bitter
I've lost my head, when the clock struck ten
The blade came crashing down and now
I'm back where I had started
Could give a fuck if I'm dramatic
The reward could be prestine
If I take the pills they offer me
My dreams could be serene
But, I never wanted that figmentated lies
To put on a public act
For their brainwashed minds

Every day I wake up just to do
The same shit over and over again
It gets hard to even stand up when
I don’t know who I am
I thought you were a friend
But where were you in the end?
I see it’s all just pretend
Now my wounds they won’t even mend
Th-th-th-they won’t mend, nothing feels real
Am I fucking ghost? Can't take time to heal
So I’ll put the knife up to my throat
Just to see if I’m alive and if
I’m not than what am I?