​of Montreal - Wintered Debts lyrics

Can't survive another come down day
When the spirit houses so much pain
So much bitterness, so much bitterness
I need to teach myself to feel again
Somehow I lost the thread of being human
Rotted in this bitterness
Too much bitterness

I'm so confused
What is the function of this ego-sickness?
Uselessly beleaguered by self
Hatred whisperings
I can't deal with mourning at the carcass
Of my failures any longer
Slipping on my own vomit while I
Tried to call you from a
Bathroom in Sao Paulo, but I was
Too drunk to formulate any
Sort of Earthly language
So much bitterness, too much bitterness

Other people can say there is
A true belief system
But all my life I've been
Betrayed by my mother's religion
So much bitterness, too much bitterness

I'm so destroyed
What is the purpose of this ego-sickness?
Uselessly besieged by
Self-aversion whisperings
Man, I can't deal with
Mourning at the carcass
Of my failures any longer any longer!

Can't seem to get the saddle on
The spoils of this morbid fugue
My mantras of subhuman nature
Just a baleful ululation

The ink's dripping all over me!
The only regret I have is caring!
Are we posing
Are we props riding the anger till it stops?

Father, will we starve today? Father
Will we starve?
Father, will we starve today? Father
Will we starve?

No my child, there are wild women here and
A crafty fish am I no my child
There are wild women here and
A fleshy catch am I

Will our quarters be the sunken
Earth deep beneath the meadow?
Will our quarters be the sunken
Earth deep beneath the ground?

No my child
You lay your head upon a monstrous felony
No my child
You'll rest your head upon a gross misdeed

Father will I cry again
Crossed the earth to fight
Father will I cry again, a victim of abuse

No my child
Don't be the world needs more distinction
For awful retribution is the singular delight

It's hard to sympathize with those
That won't fight for themselves
I can't hold both our faces
Off the flames much longer
The child of our struggle is free
I've fallen out of love with the prisoner

What's to save us?