YamiZaki, NØVAN!TY - Suicidal Love lyrics

I can't seem to find my inner peace
I sit here and pop two beans
I think love is make believe
But you didn't hear that from me
Baby, I can't seem to find you
Your love has me in a noose
You can call it 'suicide' but
I was dead before I was alive
And now my momma cries
Cuz her first born committed suicide


Funny how you mention that
Cuz that was almost me so many times
Cuz I wanted to die all my life
In front of my own family and all of my friends
including the one that I was with before
Sorry to say this but it's the deep, dark truth
That I keep locked up inside my mind
And I don't want anyone that I care for to,

find out soon cuz if they do
They'll have me chained up then
my demons will come for me
and take my own soul and I will start
to become insane like how I was before I met
The one that was there for me
That's too late cuz everyone is gonna be dead soon