YVS, Shiloh Dynasty - Holding on lyrics

Tell me why I've waited for so long
When she don't even know who I am
Tell me why I'm holding on so long
When she can't even love me no more

Got this feeling of a knife in my chest
Taking all of these drugs yet I feel stressed
Taking all of these shots, she confessed
Consciously, constantly, in my head
Sitting here thinking that I'm
Better off dead
Drown in my sorrows feeling like I'm all bled
Lied to me, I been so damn misled
All these tears and the blood that I shed

Cannot replace you I don't
Know what the fuck I'm supposed to do
Said I fall apart down to my core
And I told you this all before
She left me with a broken heart
Told her that were falling apart
She cut too deep left here
With all these scars
I can't do it no more fucking sick of it all

I ain't afraid to let go
Bitterness, killing me I shoulda known
All of this love that I gave, I bestowed
Now I see, left here is all the shadows
Longing, I'm cold for this life that I had
Knives in my stomach, I feel it all stab
But it's for the best, I know I can't be sad
Feeling so lost and I'm hurt
And I'm so scarred

Tell me why I've waited for so long
When she don't even know who I am
Tell me why I'm holding on so long
When she can't even love me no more