ZOUNI, Kailee Morgue - By your death bed lyrics

I swear I've tried everything
Cut the coffee for some tea
Cutting friends off who were mean
And I tried to get more sleep
But the roots are planted so deep
Do you think that you could love me
If I can't get happy

I don't know where to start this all
Been a couple of months of mess
What ever I think about
Somehow I end up at your spot
I read a lot I worked a lot
Heard a lot and walked a lot
To get over and start a life
Think you'll be proud

Like I said I will I sent
Your sis to university
Your parents only talk to me
Whеn they forget that you've been gonе

And I've been trying to plan
My future on my own
I'm stuck on the same page on day 1

I swear I've tried everything
(making the changes)
Cut the coffee for some tea
(what's the difference)
But it's been 18 hours and probably
5 words that I've said
And you make me feel lovely
But I'm a different kind of hungry

And I can't get happy
Without you in my life
I get to still be who I used to be
Waking up before the alarm bells to
Check your side of bed
It's the same life in a different room
And I can't be happy

And I don't know what face to make
When people ask about your health

Don't know if I should comfort them
Balling out their eyes out again
Every call and every hug winds
Me back to morning of
Brings me to the morning by your death bed

I swear I've tried everything
Cut the coffee for some tea
But it's been 18 hours and probably
5 words that I've said
And you make me feel lovely
But I'm a different kind of hungry

And I can't get happy
I swear I tried everything
Pretending to be okay searching a lookalike

But every turn I take to make
My way back to the past
I've been stopped at every corner
And brought back to reality
Eventually we'll fade away
I'll bury us deep down in my heart
When our time is here
I'm scared I might fade away
If no one tells me I'm okay
Cause people seem to look right
Through me these days
It's not that I want your pity
I just want someone to hear me
And I can't get happy