​dreaming of cali - ​ameliorated lyrics

I know I've tried so long
To be part of your game
Big waves that crush my soul
They make me wanna fade
Time changes everything
Even you know I have changed
An ocean full of tears
They make me wanna stay

And I just feel the same
Drained inside my pain feelings never change
Unless they were just fake
And sometimes I feel lost
While I try to ease my pain
But you know that I'll be back ameliorated

You're stuck inside my brain
Let us simply let things roll
Big waves that crush my soul
I'm gonna embrace the cold
Time changes everything
But some things just never change
So I'm gonna pack my things
But I'll be back again

And I know I'm not the one
The one I used to be
But you know that I'll be back
I'm still levitating
I will get out of the cold
And embrace the sun
Gonna get out of this mess ameliorated
Ameliorated

And I just feel the same
Drained inside my pain feelings never change
Unless they were just fake
And sometimes I feel lost
While I try to ease my pain
But you know that I'll be back ameliorated