Abstract Mindstate, Trizonna McClendon - Pain lyrics

Yeah, sometimes it's real hard, you know?
Try to stay focused and keep my mind right
You know? But sometimes it just gets hard

This black man done felt it all
From the to the to the cracks
On them cold cell walls
It's what I'm asking for terrible
My woman's too independent
My daughter too unbearable to Inglewood
Shorty finally finished school
Too busy, barely made it
Now I really know what it means
When they same it's self infected
'Cause that same cat who was selling
It's the same cat who's addicted
I'm sick and suicidal just to cop out
When I entered the school of life
I promised to mom I wouldn't drop out
Hanging like my people they just hanging
Cursing, drinking poison
Smoking and gangbanging
But still, it's me they look upon
To be husband for the wife
A strong father to the son
Questions, I got just one
Who do I turn to for my problems to be solved
When my day is finally done, huh

I live and breathe your pain you to rise
No love has left you pain to the sky obtain
Freedom's a state of mind
No man can take from you

What up, mommy? You just woke
Why you look so tired? Is
Your soul still alive?
Or can your soul survive the jibe
And the drama that they put you through
My eyes wanna cry when they look at you
To inside, they can't see me break
Every day of your life is a continuous way
We can't continue this way some gotta
You alive living dead
You should be dying to live
I'm tryna give the gospel on maintaining life
What woman comes first than a
Mother and a wife
'Cause strive don't do jack
But through the wall
It's the coldest of the city that
Makes you shiver when you talk
Deliver thoughts of retribution
Holding your back
A shoulder to cry on and rely
On is what you lack
I got your back and everything that you need
I lived your life and vice versa
Your pain is what I breathe

Some see me in the skin, I mean it
But do they know what it's like to
Walk in my shoes size 11s
I concentrate in try to keep
Thoughts close to Heaven when my day comes
I'ma be that dude like I was Devin
Or Quincy Jones, but until then
I write these songs to get
This weight off my chest
It's hurtin' and feeling wrong
But I'ma move on, on and on
It's like a battle when it's earth like
Garden of Eden, snakes rattle
So I stay king and never
Get low on self-esteem
I know my faith mixed with my
Prayers leads to the dream
And we can do anything as long
As conscious minds is present
Physical life mixed with the strife
It's been some long nights
I question myself, is this in vain?
But then the most high touches my
Soul right through the pain
Yeah, so much of it