Cam Wallace, Swoope - Ghost Dad lyrics

My dad was physically present
And emotionally absent
I had to learn how to be
A man from music, television, and my mom
The issues that I have and have had with God
Is because I didn't have an earthly
Father to be a prototype

Yeah, yeah
I could never make you proud enough
And if I did
Then you never said it loud enough
For me to hear it
How was I to know that I should just
Assume the lyrics that never came
Out your mouth was love?
How was you to cope with me
Lookin' to mom so much?
Was just a kid, who am I kiddin'?
Uncle feelin' real nevеr, you and I didn't
Cliff and Theo, nothin' we know
Who am I missin'?
I'd known that I wanted you homе more
You was not sensing
Wishing for validation I was not gettin'
It was tricky
You was present, but was not giftin'
All the things that you chip
Off your old block
Needs 'cause he won't stop
Feedin' for the folks around him
Just to give him value
Not knowin' that he'll never ever
Get it without You but still tries, how cute
Lookin' for Cosby from the TV, you was close
Dad
I wanted Huxtable, you gave me ghost, Dad

Ghost dad, why won't you come back?
I want you to stay wit' me
I need you to (Stay wit' me) stay wit' me
But, you keep goin' ghost dad
Why won't you come back?
I want you to (Stay wit' me) stay wit' me
(I need you to stay wit' me) , stay wit' me

Yeah now the thoughts I think
Of you was bittersweet
Ain't no way I didn't see all
The things you did for me nice school
Didn't sleep so one day that I could dream
All the nights you didn't leave
When the marriage wasn't sweet
When Val's sickness and health
Really became reality
Mama more sick than in health and you
Took care of her like a G
I used to say you failed your seat
But that's my ego i see less of a failure
More of a farmer watchin' the seed grow
And trees don't look to the
Farmer and throw shade
They provided after the farmers
Harvested long days
I was blinded by strong rage
You loved me the wrong way
Provided a house, I needed a
Home to feng shui, was off
What meant the most to me
Emotionally you wasn't there
But for me to judge with
Limited context wasn't fair
I ain't tryin' to change the past
I'm just hopin' that
We can navigate the trauma
Wit' the Holy Ghost, dad

Ghost dad, why won't you come back?
I want you to stay wit' me
I need you to (Stay wit' me) stay wit' me
But, you keep goin' ghost dad
(Why won't you come back?)
I want you to (Stay wit' me) stay wit' me now
(I need you to stay wit' me)
Stay wit' me now

I mean, how can you love a God you don't see
And you don't love your brother
Who you do see? It's like, you know
How can I love my Heavenly
Father who I don't see
When my earthly father has been, like
Not the best to you?
I, I, I'm learnin' not to say
I used to say my dad was trash
I used to say that and then I had kids
And it was like "No, he actually did a lot"