Connor Quest! - Catching Up lyrics

I can try, I can fight
But they'll always be this distance
Is it me? The way I am? Is
It just how it's been written
I'm strong enough, I know that
But there's far more that I lack
I'm forever catching up, catching up
Catching up to you

Seeing what you earn, now these bitter words
I can taste them on the tip of my tongue
(on the tip of my tongue)
Falling off the curve, now you're
Racing to be first
Is there any more I could've done
(I have done more)
If I trained harder, if my brain was smarter
Would the outcome be the same (be the same)
Keep my guard up, but it cracks my armour
Will these efforts all be in vain

I can try, I can fight
But they'll always be this distance
Is it me? The way I am? Is
It just how it's been written
I'm strong enough, I know that
But there's far more that I lack
I'm forever catching up, catching up
Catching up to you
They became what they're meant to be
But now this wave of jealousy
Is drowning me, I can't breathe
But they deserve it
They found places I could never
Reach, looked out beyond
What I could ever see
But they deserve it, they deserve it
Why don't I deserve it

Am I selfish, I can't help
It, I was destined, i thought
Acting reckless, but the message that I'm
Sending now seems flawed
Can I mend this redirect my soul
Find another way to achieve my goal
I'll be at your side, swallowing my pride
Although it kills inside

I can try, I can fight
But they'll always be this distance
Is it me? The way I am? Is
It just how it's been written
I'm strong enough, I know that
But there's far more that I lack
I'm forever catching up, catching up
Catching up to you
They became what they're meant to be
But now this wave of jealousy
Is drowning me, I can't breathe
But they deserve it
They found places I could never
Reach, looked out beyond
What I could ever see
But they deserve it, they deserve it
Why don't I deserve it

It's killing me, it's killing me
It's killing me