Dead Silent - Social Suicide lyrics

I don't mean to offend you if we got history
But I eliminated some people
I really didn't need, and
I don't mean to throw
Pity parties for sympathy
But this year's been the absolute worst
Look what it did to me
I'm hitting dead ends
I faded with all of my best friends
The ones I needed to be lifting
It's crazy seeing what can
Change in a summer but I ain't tripping
I'm so proud that I consider you brothers
I'm outgrowing this town, it's too cozy
Yeah my circle faded
No more ring around the rosie
I'm closing this chapter for good
And moving to a town where
Ain't nobody know me, i should
Another town where I'll be misundеrstood

Whoa, I’m on the brink of social suicide
Counting friends, I’m sick of losing minе
Spare me some serotonin, I’m too deprived
Sick of looking at my reflection
Like "Who am I?"
Yeah, I’m so lonely I could throw up
With people disappearing just as quickly
As they show up don’t think I wanna grow up
Sitting in my bed wishing that
I never woke up somebody please show up

Look at my future
I'm selling out packed shows
Front to the back rows swimming in mad dough
Numbers that grow
Couple million in tax, no sweat
Indie catalog, owning my past flows
Still spit like I'm chewing tobacco
Hitting every city from Denver to Glasgow
Then I'm back home sell out Madison
Now my mom can have the garden of her dreams
Quit her job, relax and breathe
But am I sacrificing too much?
I'm so afraid to screw up
It's eating at my mind
Now it's far beyond chewed up
Would you all hate me if I blew up?
Dime on my finger, I'm praying
That I never lose her, but

Whoa, I’m on the brink of social suicide
Counting friends, I’m sick of losing mine
Spare me some serotonin, I’m too deprived
Sick of looking at my reflection
Like "Who am I?"
Yeah, I’m so lonely I could throw up
With people disappearing just as quickly
As they show up don’t think I wanna grow up
Sitting in my bed wishing that
I never woke up somebody please show up

Sitting in my car until my phone dies
Staying up till 6 to write
A verse until the sunrise
Running out of gas
And keeping track of both my front tires
Fill em with the air inside my
Head in case they run dry
So what if I'm insane?
I got some habit's so unusual
Live with a perspective some would
See as pure delusional
It's suitable for me
And Imma do this till it
Works or till I'm dead that's undisputable
You can disagree at my funeral
Cause I won't live the life
That you insist on
Get buried with the negativity I
Hit the switch on i'm narrowing my clique
You're the stick the snake sit's on
I'm doing this for kicks
Wear it if the shoe fit's on

Whoa, I’m on the brink of social suicide
Counting friends, I’m sick of losing mine
Spare me some serotonin, I’m too deprived
Sick of looking at my reflection
Like "Who am I?"
Yeah, I’m so lonely I could throw up
With people disappearing just as quickly
As they show up don’t think I wanna grow up
Sitting in my bed wishing that
I never woke up nobody’s gonna show up