Dead Silent - Wanna Feel Alright lyrics

I feel the world watching
Counting my rainy days
Running on empty, but still hitting the gas
I never hesitate
Doing ninety-five on the interstate
Interstellar travel whenever I meditate
I see the sky falling
It's time to celebrate blame God
But He can't respond if I never pray
The young renegade, I'm tryna be great
But this routine to get me there
Got me feeling a way
I'm ripping the gauze, I need
A minute to pause, feel like a fraud
Breaking the barrier
These aren't my typical walls
Yeah, I'm a monster wrapping you in my jaws
Bite down
But somehow it's me always taking the fall
I'm looking for God like
I've been feeling withdrawals
Staring at my adolescence and
Noticing I've been robbed
Reciting vows and covering my facade
I took a bow, I'm waiting for the applause

I just wanna smile, I just wanna vibe
I don't wanna come down
When I'm feeling high
I've been feeling restless
I can't even lie
Wanna feel okay, wanna feel alright
I don't wanna get rich, but I might try
Wanna be the greatest, know I got the drive
I just want an exit, not from this life
Just the way I'm living, man
I wanna feel alright wanna feel alright

Tried taking the time to rewind
Tried faking a smile to get by
Drove a stake into my pride
Tried talking to God
He might've forgot to reply
Or maybe He laid it out and
I've been ignoring the signs
Maybe what I need is right
In front of my eyes or it could be overseas
But I've been caught in the tide
And I'm sinking at night, I'm not drinking
I'm fine or overthinking my life
I promise I'll be alright back in '17
This girl told me I'd never make it
Hearing it then
I swear that it gave me the most drive
I screenshotted and made it my
Goal to prove her wrong
I was so determined to make
It just out of spite
Then she moved out of state and
Stumbled in with the wrong crowd
Messed around and fell in love with this guy
Two years later, he went and smuggled a 9
Took the gun to her stomach
Shot her and took her life
Now I got mixed feelings
Mixed drinks in my fridge chilling
She was young and her
Blood never deserved spilling
She was young, immature
And only deserved healing
Now if I make it, man
I'ma feel like a villain
I don't wanna feel like I'm doing
This for the wrong reason and in my brain
There's a small region that says
Maybe I'm a saint and I'm
Just guarding my feelings
Or maybe I'm the snake inside
The Garden of Eden

I just wanna smile, I just wanna vibe
I don't wanna come down
When I'm feeling high
I've been feeling restless
I can't even lie
Wanna feel okay, wanna feel alright
I don't wanna get rich, but I might try
Wanna be the greatest, know I got the drive
I just want an exit, not from this life
Just the way I'm living, man
I wanna feel alright wanna feel alright