Deadfish, ​heylog - ​on my own lyrics

(I've kept on fucking up)
(And that's why I can't keep it up)
(But now, I'm left here with now)
(I gotta manage here on my own)

It's been so cold now
That I've been on my own now
I never want to wake up
These thoughts in my mind forever
No, I don't wanna hang out now
'Cause, too busy hating on myself, yeah
Just digging my grave deeper
'Til I meet the reaper
Death to me is peace, yeah
I hate myself, all my cuts to prove that
I need a break, isolate from all of that
Damn, it causes my mind to break
Can you say that you relate?

So I've been tryna find
Anything that could help me
And therapy isn't rеally perfect
I'm so close to pull thе plug
I'm on my own, I'm on the edge
I'm so scared, nowhere to run
But I'm still sitting on my own
Well, that's how my day goes

(I've kept on fucking up)
(And that's why I can't keep it up)
(But now, I'm left here with now)
(I gotta manage here on my own)

You don't know how much you mean to me
I stumble up on my feet
Text you and never sleep
I'm happy, this can't be me cut me off
Write a song about us oh, numb
I'm hoping you're gone you caught me a break
Recover from loss but still feel the same

So I've been tryna find
Anything that could help me
And therapy isn't really perfect
I'm so close to pull the plug
I'm on my own, I'm on the edge
I'm so scared, nowhere to run
But I'm still sitting on my own
Well, that's how my day goes