Demxntia, Original God - pray for closure ​ lyrics

We can't run away forever
Face yourself inside the mirror
Look into your eyes
I know it's hard to find whats' in your mind
Yeah drugs let you avoid your demons
But it won't fill the void in your heart
I know it's hard

So I just wanna know
What I did to deserve this
Feeling I never asked for
Take it all away for a
Chance to feel alive again
Tell me what it is I have to give
(What do you want from me?)
Tell me how it feels to wanna live
('Cause I don't understand)
Anything about myself at all
Like all the things I've done
That I cannot recall
So tell me what it is I have to give
(What do you want from me?)
Tell me how it feels to wanna live
('Cause I don't understand)

Told her how it feels to wanna die
I say that I'm emotionless but
Tears flow down my eyes
I say that I'm afraid of pain
But pain helps me survive
Pointless bloodshed, the war over my mind
I hope it gets me high
There's no such thing as gorgeous suicide
I've been chasing myself so why can't
I see you for miles?
I've been out of my body so, for me
It's been a while
I think maybe I've been plagued since a child
Can you delete my file? Waking up daily
Worrying about the same things
That hurt me for years and years
I hope that god eats my fears
(Or else I will) pray for closure
Can't keep my composure when you come around
Feel myself breaking down

So I just wanna know
What I did to deserve this
Feeling I never asked for
Take it all away for a
Chance to feel alive again
Tell me what it is I have to give
(What do you want from me?)
Tell me how it feels to wanna live
('Cause I don't understand)
Anything about myself at all
Like all the things I've done
That I cannot recall
So tell me what it is I have to give
(What do you want from me?)
Tell me how it feels to wanna live
('Cause I don't understand)