Demxntia - ​​​​selfish (i wished you hated me) lyrics

Drown me in despair
I'm broken, way beyond repair from sulking
Over the times that we'd never get back
Drunk every night, with cigarette pack
But it's only fair that I'm broken
Way beyond repair i know that it's all my
Fault I'm guilty as charged
I'd end it all but that's not what you'd want
So it's hard to bear
Cause I know you still care

But I wished you hated me
As much as you tried to
But you'd never hated me as much as I do
And my only fear for when I'm no longer here
Is that you'll find someone else
Who deserved all your tears
I know that sounds selfish
But I just can't help it

I've been well prepared
To go now, I'll be somewhere
You know how I tend to leave
All the ones that I love
Just to pretend like I won't give a fuck
To see what we've build become a ghost town
Swallowed by guilt like my pills
I've broken down
Every night I go through withdrawals
But it's only right for all of my wrongs
I'd be easier to bear, if you never cared

But I wished you hated me
As much as you tried to
But you'd never hated me as much as I do
And my only fear for when I'm no longer here
Is that you'll find someone else
Who deserved all your tears
I know that sounds selfish
But I just can't help it