Fukkfaace - Sadman lyrics

At night I’m a mad man, by day I’m a sad man

It’s three AM and I can’t take
My hand off this knife i’m scared and alone
And all I wanna do is die
My night was filled with horror
My day filled with pain
I’m really on the border
Of going fully insane
I’m in my car for my, my morning drive
I pull up next to a motherfucker
With that look in his eye
He sped up and cut me off
So I decided this piece of
Shit had to fuckin’ die
I don’t know what happened
I snapped and so I followed him to his work
Knocked him out
And my car, I threw him inside
Brought him to my house and
Drew the same knife
I kissed it before cutting him open
Side to side covered in blood I freaked out
Bagged up his insides
Gotta grab the bleach, before the blood
It fuckin’ dries
He smelled sweet like sugar
I can’t imagine the pain
It’s been done, I’m driven completely insane
Nobody told me the rush when
You take your first life
I’m gonna take a second, and it’ll be mine
I draw my final breath in
And I take this knife
Let’s make this quick, I want my pain to die

At night I’m a mad man, by day I’m a sad man
By day I’m a sad man
At night I’m a mad man, by day I’m a sad man
By day I’m a sad man, by day I’m a sad man

I find myself again, in a scary situation
Once again, I’ve done something that I
Truly wish I hadn’t
Can’t wash the filth off
My sins burnt in my skin
I can’t escape my evil deeds
And my obsessions and compulsions
Too often lead me
I wish I had any sense of control
But I don’t think I do
At night in the dark my thoughts compel me
The guilt and misery linger
My days are full of pain choke it down
Bury it away and try to hide all my shame
As I lay in this bed
Her body lies next to me so cold, so still
Saddest thing I’ve ever seen
I have the urge, and so I
Pushed her down the stairs, No goodbye
So fully unexpected there’s no way she
Could have seen it coming
As she laid at the bottom in a
Tangled mess of limbs choking for air
Life slowly left her, tears
Running down her face, Into her hair
She looked up at me
Although she couldn’t speak
I knew all she wanted to know
Was "Why? Please tell me"
I wish I had an answer
But I don’t and I’m sorry for that
My regret was immediate and
It remains constantly intact
And even though her body reminds me
Of the horrible things I’ve done
I still love her
So I’ll keep her next to me
While I load this gun
Put it up to my head and
Feel the weight in my hand
I can hear the rain outside
I can feel the aching deep inside
I’ll pull the trigger, end
My reign of terror, Let me die

At night I’m a mad man, by day I’m a sad man
By day I’m a sad man
At night I’m a mad man, by day I’m a sad man
By day I’m a sad man, by day I’m a sad man
At night I’m a mad man, by day I’m a sad man
By day I’m a sad man
At night I’m a mad man, by day I’m a sad man
By day I’m a sad man, by day I’m a sad man
By day I’m a sad man