IAMe - This Is This lyrics

I wish I was under tall palm trees
Instead of in the hood
Selling liquor in greens
They got that Paul Wall lean
But this ain't the dirty dirty
Some be sippin' syrup
Most are on that same tip as everybody else
And that Goose, gin and juice, swishers too
Anything to get us through another day
It's nothing new
That's the attitude that we should see it
As a blessing but we wake up to our
Problems and addictions it's depressing
Stressful bills
Money's stretched 'til it's nil
Obligations like child support, your files
I'll call you on probation
I'm facing charges currently
Nothing worth discussing
But the nerve of these fuckers
They tryna give me jury duty


Now I'm filling out this form
What's my reason for deferral?
Well, I'll be on trial myself next
Month as it turns out in a different state
Which only complicates shit
Just when I thought I had
Gotten smarter with age
One mistake put me right back in the system
(All I know is what I won't be
Putting right back in my system)
They'll be testing my piss
I've got too much to lose to risk it
When I was younger, I didn't even care
Kept getting twisted
Drank water before the test to the results
Worked every time like a charm
So I continued to smoke
But, I've been needing to take a break
Even if it was forced
It's only been two weeks
But there's already less fog on the shore

When left to my own devices I'd like
To say I choose the m-i-c
But lately it's been too much booze and THC
What kind of rapper does
That make me? Average, i'd say
A cadaver, well maybe
The dead speak in clichés
Spread through airwaves and shitty DJs
I'd rather never be played
Ain't a far cry from where I'm at now
I play the background
The front line was too crammed in
It cramped style in a land where they camp
Outside of Best Buys call it Black Friday
Consumer waste senseless dollars
No change or progress
We still the planet of systematic racism
Classism
We manage to get around like transit
But never transcend it's a damn shame
Some are poor, some pouring Champaign
Let's toast to those to whom a piece
Of toast would go so far
It's not a meal, but it's a start
To think with me, this gets dark
That ain't narcissism
This is Noah's ark we living
There is many of us tryna
Stay above the water
The flood is coming towards us red
It's either blood or lava
Which one is hotter?
What's in these veins burns each day worse
From the manger to the cremator, it's nature
Insurance for your injuries
Church for your uncertainties
Tragedies, emergencies
These are only worldly things
See, you can cling to whatever you want
And just hope that what you're dependent upon
Will cross over into the infinite, I'm gone

I can't leave without saying this, though
It's important
This is for a select few: thank you
I'm thankful for the rest too
But they ain't you
It means a lot that you came through
This flame's fueled the tank's full
I'ma blaze new trails on this journey
I'm still learning how to be
I'm getting older, still growing
Knowing this I guarantee
In case you didn't now my steez
(Here it goes) j-A the me-son
But, it's a new day, I'm tryna see sun
I quit with no AA and the reason is simple
The Good Sir is who I'm tryna become

Yea that's just a little sneak preview
See, they say if you love something
You gotta set it free so, you know
I had to let the Jameson go
See, what's the Good Sir
Jameson without the Jameson
It's my roll model hey, I just want to say
Thank you for supporting Lame
It really means a lot to me
You are all good people sincerely, Good Sir