Mason Jennings - Wake Up lyrics

I drink a bottle everyday then
Step on the stage
I first knew something was wrong when
I was half my age
One night while I was singing
I started to laugh
I couldn't stop laughing for a
Week and a half

I'll never forget the girl in the first row
She said, "But it's not funny"
I said, "I know"

So I went to a shrink and he said to me
"Just don't drink when you're nervous
That's the key"
And I said, "Okay, that sounds fine"
I didn't tell him I was nervous all the time

So I kept on drinking and I kept on thinking

Wake up, you're dying now you should be dead
But, you're not somehow
You think you're being brave
But, you're digging a grave
You talk like a master
But, you live like a slave

I started meditating, that worked for a while
I spent a lot of time alone
And I forgot how to smile
I went to church, I'd just sit there and stew
Thinking, "How can all these people
Believe things that aren't true"

It seems to work well for them, why can't I?
I guess it's 'cause I'm special
'Cause, I'm too smart a guy too smart

Wake up, you're dying now you should be dead
But, you're not somehow
You think you're being brave
But, you're digging a grave
You talk like a master
But, you live like a slave

I decided that I couldn't do it alone
I called a guy I know on a telephone
I told him all I ever
Wanted was to be perfect
I sure as hell don't wanna be an alcoholic

Acceptance is a doorway to hell
If you're on the wrong side
Things don't go so well
So I accepted who I am, and named my disease
And finally felt relief
And got down on my knees

Wake up, you're living now
You've been gone so long
Do you remember how?
Just be yourself, that's being brave
You're not the master
But, you sure ain't the slave
You're not the master
But, you sure ain't the slave

Wake up, you're living now
You've been gone so long
Do you remember how?
Just be yourself, that's being brave
You're not the master
But, you sure ain't the slave
You're not the master
But, you sure ain't the slave

You're not the master
But, you sure ain't the slave