Nova Rockafeller - Wishing Well lyrics

If I could take a picture of my brain
Ashes in a field
And my mansion burnt to frames
Locked inside the basement is the
People that I blame for the pain
And a field of smoking embers in the rain
Smoke settled and now all I smell is sulfur
Making offerings to circling vultures
Killing all the parts of me that
Learned to dream in color
Because keeping them alive would mean
They’d always have to suffer
Then I blinked and got lost in the instance
I got so far and all it cost me was distance
Fire in the air, I made ash from my kingdom
And fell flat on my back
From flipping off the system
It's not right that when I jumped
I did not take flight
And now the voices in my head
Keep saying they got it right
Now I’m terrified of heights
And I’m blind to all the lights
Tying shit around my neck tryna
Put stars into my nights

Don’t come wishing at my well
Saying that you miss me and
You hope I find myself
You and your well wishes
See you in hell bitches
Keep your two pennies up in that
Jar that's on your shelf
Y'all don't know me no more

There’s a couple people that I wanna see
But Im trying not to get
In trouble with my feet
Walk a string of bad decisions
She been known to go repeat
With a head full of issues
She tell everyone I meet
I used to have compassion for her think
That they were asking for her
Didn’t understand why they would break her
When they can’t restore her
Then there’s blood on the floor I see black
This wouldn’t have fucking happened
If I didn’t find your knife in my back
Don’t you ever think you fueled my fire
Or left me inspired
Like hitting rock bottom was
Just what I required
How when the perfect all faded and
I was left on the wire
Bet you expected me to up and retire
You fuckin flake
How am I’m doing fucking great
I just feel a crushing pain with every
Breath I fucking take take take
But as I bring my mansion to the ground
Brick by brick I build a castle in the clouds

Don’t come wishing at my well
Saying that you miss me and
You hope I find myself
You and your well wishes
See you in hell bitches
Keep your two pennies up in that
Jar that's on your shelf
Y'all don't know me no more