NTHN (UK) - Falling lyrics

The problem-free are preaching I
Should stay strong i’m trying to
But if you see me
Acting like there’s nothing wrong
I’m lying to myself again
Convinced that if I just pretend then
All will be okay
Nothing wrong with calling home
Three times a day but I’m falling

And I’m the type to not accept the
Hand that’s reaching out to me
Instead I’ll persevere until I land
Grip is failing me don’t think I can hold
This weight much longer and besides
If I’m denying help then
I’m only prolonging this i’m falling
And though it’s not as often anymore
That doesn’t make the impact
Any better than before
Sometimes it’s easier when you’re not
Out of practice with recovering
I think my ignorance is starting
To catch up with me

Never reaching out ‘cause I’m too scared of
Letting go of what I’m used to
Believing I can do this on my own
But the truth is it’s exhausting
Even calling out for help
And it’s taking all the strength I have
Just trying to keep myself from falling