NTHN (UK) - Letting Go lyrics

I find it hard to focus
And I know I should be happier tonight
But I can't force what I can't feel anymore
So I'm doing all I can to hide the signs
I try to hold a smile
Even if I have to fake it here for a while
I just hope that I can make it
To the end of the night
It's taking all my effort
Just to feel alright
It's the same old story every time

'Cause lately I've been scared
Of letting go
And I've been on the edge so long that
It feels like all I've ever known
'Cause the further I climb
The further I fall
Sometimes I wonder if I'd be
Better never trying at all
I just wanna feel like the
Highs are worth the lows

My confidence is dropping
Feel the pressure as I look across the room
Desperate not to show it
I'm hoping nobody's noticed yet
But I don't wanna assume
So I'm laughing when I think I should
Looking for the cues keeping my composure
Hoping they don't see the clues
Trying to live in the moment ain't as
Easy as it used to be

And I've been trying to keep an
Open mind through it all
Tell myself each time that the
Climb is worth the fall
Convince myself that this time will
Be better than before but I don't know if I
Can keep pretending anymore
'Cause even if I beat this
I'll be picking up the pieces by tomorrow
It feels like any happiness I
Have tonight is borrowed
The emptiness that follows and the guilt
I'm feeling underneath the surface
Makes me question if the highs I
Have are ever really worth this

'Cause lately I've been scared
Of letting go
And I've been on the edge so long that
It feels like all I've ever known
'Cause the further I climb
The further I fall
Sometimes I wonder if I'd be
Better never trying at all
I just wanna feel like the
Highs are worth the lows

(I just wanna feel like the
Highs are worth the lows)
'Cause lately I've been scared
Of letting go
(I've been scared of letting go)
And I've been on the edge so long that
It feels like all I've ever known
(like all I've ever known)
'Cause the further I climb
The further I fall
Sometimes I wonder if I'd be
Better never trying at all
I just wanna feel like the
Highs are worth the lows
(I just wanna feel like the
Highs are worth the lows)