Phora - Myself Again lyrics

Look, I don't wanna feel numb no more
(No more)
I don't wanna feel numb no more (No more)
I just wanna be myself
I just wanna be myself again
I don't wanna feel numb no more (No more)
I don't wanna feel numb no more (No more)
I just wanna be myself, I
Just wanna be myself again, yeah

I know my mom worry 'bout me
It's been hard to handle
I feel the devil everywhere
It's followin' my shadow
Between myself and fightin' family
It's too much to battle
Hard to trust most people in LA
'cause all these people shallow
Everywhere I go, I feel a cloud on me
Rainin' down on me
I just wanna do good but no one's proud of me
Fuck, wish a fеw people stuck around for me
I just feel if God еxists
He's probably lookin' down on me (Damn)
Stabbed in the back by the people I trust
Ever seen someone for who they were
And it made you disgusted?
Old friends wanna see me
Fail, fuck the rumors, still prevail
I would say I wish 'em well but
There's a special place in Hell
For people who betrayed the only
Ones that gave a fuck
When I lost it all, my phone stopped ringin'
That should say enough
I just couldn't wait for you
Couldn't stay broke for you
I'd rather my cryin' in a
Rolls or Mercedes truck
Way I feel is nothin' new
I grew up feelin' fuckin' worthless
I was too much of a sinner
Even for the churches
Felt like I was too much for my family
I was just a burden
Thing we call life, wanted to quit
Tried to control the urges
But, I was born into a world
Where it's too hard to feel
Only chances that we have was sell drugs
Rob or kill dancin' with the devil
Hard for me to see that God was real
All I ever saw was murders
Over pride and dollar bills
Lost all I had, no one was checkin' on me
Family fell apart, Christmas was empty for me
But people start to come around
When they need some money
Tried to give 'em shoes to walk in
Realized they was steppin' on me
Most of my friends are buried in
The dirt or in a cage
I guess I'm traumatized by life
I should be in a grave lights close down
Fans scream when I hit the stage
But they'll never know the reason
Why I feel this way

Look, I don't wanna feel numb no more
(No more)
I don't wanna feel numb no more (No more)
I just wanna be myself
I just wanna be myself again
I don't wanna feel numb no more (No more)
I don't wanna feel numb no more (No more)
I just wanna be myself
I just wanna be myself again