Ren - Do You Believe lyrics

Do you believe it's morning?
I'm alive but that's the last
Thing on my mind
Do you believe it's morning?
I'm alive but that's the last
Thing on my mind

Dear future self
I hope you're in good health
I'm writing 'cause I'm frightened
I've been fighting with myself
I wake up in the morning
Rain is poring but I don't mean outside
I mean a storm is roaring in
The corners deep in my mind
And I've been funding my friends for
Advice to break the ice how would you?

Yeah I'm nice
Actually, I'm fucking sore inside
I'm border lined to a side
But I'm really trying to try
And shine in this dark, dark life of mine
The film "Life of Brian"
I watched it 50 times
Because I'm always searching for the
Brighter side of life
And maybe one day the thoughts will pay off
But 'til then, my future
Self, I'm feeling lost, ha

Do you believe it's morning?
I'm alive but that's the last
Thing on my mind
Do you believe it's morning?
I'm alive but that's the last
Thing on my mind

Dear future self, why am I unwell?
Will I ever find a way to
Climb right out of this hell?
Will I ever find a way to leave my demons?
Find a breath that keeps me breathing?
Find a hope to keep believing?
Find the way out? Huh

'Cause something funny happens when
You're always sick
When you wake up every day praying
That day might be it
That you might turn a corner
Into life or into death
'Cause you hate that state of limbo
'Cause you hate that state of stress

And many lessons I have learned
Being burned by the fires of depression
As they scorch up my earth
I have learned that I'm stronger than
I ever thought I was
'Cause I'm still here and breathin'
My heart's beating blood
But I'm a paradox, I feel so alone
Yet I isolate myself, it's no ones fault

But my own heart is broken 'cause of the
Friends that I've had to have died
Heart is broken 'cause I've been sick
For a third of my life
Heart is broken 'cause we live on a
Planet that values money more than life
And we're damaging that planet that
We need to survive my broken heart
It breaks every time I feel the breaks
On my brain when it aches

Bringing the bruises back to faith
Feeding my demons while they wait
Ask my angels why for sake have faith
Take away this pain in my brain
And bring the rain, rain on my soul
Future self, could you put me out this hole
Ha?

Do you believe it's morning?
I'm alive but that's the last
Thing on my mind
Do you believe it's morning?
I'm alive but that's the last
Thing on my mind
Do you believe it's morning?
I'm alive but that's the last
Thing on my mind
Do you believe it's morning?
I'm alive but that's the last
Thing on my, my, my, my mind