Ren, Molly McKenna - Penitence lyrics

Lately I think i was over
Timing my chest beating slower
Like the clouds the color of them
Fading out fading out

Oh, the heavy heart I carry
Went over your head and over mine

I counted the days she left like a prisoner
Etching markings on my skin with an old knife
Scratching (forget)
You see, I wanted the physical
Too much, the psychological
And yet, no matter how hard I dug
I still could not match that pain (regret)
I longed for reason, I sung with demons
I sat in a dark dusty room
Barely moving, breathing (forget)
I chewed through my own umbilical cord
Attached to her navel
I wanted to be separate

Ooh oh, I think my mind is leaking
Ooh solitude is so depleting

I did it to myself
I know that you are faithful
I did it for my health
How come I'm still unstable?
I've fallen far from heaven
A suicidal angel yes, lost my wings and fell
Feeling so ungraceful banished into hell

I wish that I could stop crying
But they say that the body
Is seventy percent water
I feel like I must've reduced
Mine by a considerable fractions
Newton's third theory states that
For every action there must an equal
And opposite counter-reaction
And so I retraced my steps
And tried to find reason in
The arms of my demons
'Cause I can't find healing if
I can't find meaning
A conundrum leaning on my dumb, numb feelings
Haven't used high beaming when I
Hung from the ceiling
When I run from demons that
Are living in my head and escape fate and
Disapparate, evaporate, evacuate
And inactivate fake but it cut the breaks
Now I'm driving my universe in
A lake and the weight
Weight of the world don't wait
We make mistakes when it's all at stake
For goodness sake, a double take
But I don't want to eat that cake
I ruminate inside meaning
To illuminate a dark mind
I communicate without speaking
And I've seen so much I went blind
I'm wide-eyed, live in a lie
Live in a lie with a lion inside
Live in a lie with a lion inside
Of my mind that is hungry, is hungry for my
Sanity, my sanity, I
Live in a lie with a lion inside
Live in a lie with a lion inside
Of my mind that is hungry
And I don't know why
Pressure drop, deep breath, time stops
A broken et cetera, dot dot dot
Pressure drop, pressure drop, pressure drop
I feel it consuming, I can't stop
Dot dot dot, the lines join the dots
And I'm tying knots then
Divide then multiply
Square the root of pie, beat the puzzle, I
Try to keep my mind focused on the line
Hopscotch and pop rock
I take shots of teardrops
When I drop a pill pop
I find peace and time stops