Sun Kil Moon - Carissa lyrics

Oh Carissa, when I first saw you
You were a lovely child
And the last time I saw you
You were fifteen and pregnant
And running wild i remember wondering
Could there be a light at
The end of your tunnel?
But, I left Ohio then and had
Pretty much forgotten all about you
I guess you were there some years
Ago at a family funeral
But, you were one of so many relatives
I didn't know which one was you
Yesterday morning
I woke up to so many 330 area code calls
I called my mom back and she was in tears
And asked, had I spoke to my father?
Carissa burned to death last night
In a freak accident fire
In her yard in Brewster
Her daughter came home from a
Party and found her
Same way as my uncle, who was her grandfather
An aerosol can blew up in the trash
Goddamn, what were the odds?
She was just getting ready
To go to her midnight shift
As an RN in Wadsworth
And she vanished up in flames like that
But there had to be more to her life's worth
Everyone's grieving, out of their minds
Making arrangements and taking drugs
But, I'm flying out there tomorrow
Because I need to give and get some hugs
'Cause, I got questions that I'd
Like to get answered i may never get them
But Carissa, I've got to know
How did it happen?

Carissa was thirty-five
You don't just raise two kids and
Take out your trash and die
She was my second cousin
I didn't know her well at all but
It don't mean that I wasn't
Meant to find some poetry
To make some sense of this
To find a deeper meaning
In this senseless tragedy oh, Carissa
I'll sing your name across every sea

Were you doing someone else's
Chores for them? Were you just killing time
Finding things to do all by your lonesome?
Was it even you who mistakenly
Put flammables in the trash?
Was it your kids just being kids? If so, oh
The guilt they will carry around forever
Well, I'm going out there to get
A look at the landscapes
To get a look at those I'm connected by blood
And see how it all may have shaped me
Well, I'm going out there though
I'm not really needed
I'm just so broken up about it
How is it that this sad history repeated?

I'll return to Ohio (I'll return to Ohio)
To the place I was spawned
(To the place I was spawned)
Going to see where I hung with my cousins
And played with them in the snow
And fished in their ponds
Going to see how they've grown
(Gonna see how they've grown)
Visit some graves, and say, "Hey
I've missed you"
Going to find out as much as I can
About my little second cousin Carissa
Gonna go to Ohio (Gonna go to Ohio)
Where I was born (Where I was born)
Got a 10: 45 AM flight
I'm leaving tomorrow morning
Gonna see my aunts and uncles (See my)
My parents and sisters
But mostly, I'm going to pay my respects
To my little second cousin, Carissa
Going to Ohio (Gonna go to Ohio)
Where I feel I belong (Where I feel I belong)
Ask those who know the most about Carissa
For it is her life and death
That I am helplessly drawn

Carissa was thirty-five
Raised kids since she was fifteen
Years old and suddenly died
Next to an old brick firepit
Oh, there's gotta be more than that to it
She was only my second cousin
But it don't mean that I'm not here for her
Or that I wasn't meant to
Give her life poetry
Or to make sure her name
Is known across every sea