Vin Jay - You lyrics

Lately I don't really know what's
Goin' on inside of me
I wake up every day and I
Just drown in my anxiety
Know I can't complain so I
Just suffer through it silently
But there's a disconnect from who I
Am and who I'm tryna be
N-n-never change, demonstrate
Cyclic habit's everyday
Pray to God who's merciful and
Hope that I see twenty-eight
Maybe I should slow it down
And stop fearin' complacency
But if I'm bein' honest dawg
I think that it's too late for me
I'm way gone, I'm talkin' way gone
Ain't tryna stay long
The pain come and fuck my days up
I'm gettin' preyed on iII been tryna grow
I been tryna rest
I just wanna slow down and catch a breath
Thou cannot control, overthinkin' though
So many things in this life that I regret
Done pretending
Unrelenting pain but I'm too
Numb for venting funds ascending
But I got a funny feelin' God'll
Put me in a humble ending just depending
Only got 4 people in life
That'll hold me down
Everybody else two-faced
I don't got the heart to
Call you my homies now

Used to think I want a lot of
Friends and now I'm all alone
I am not complaining
I know that it's the way it's gotta go
(Go)
Still I feel there's something burnin'
Deep inside my soul
Maybe just a broken boy that's
Healin' from a broken home

You! I'm a slave to your violence
Look at all that you put me through
Got me hooked on the silence
I've been your slave and
I can't escape from
You! I'm a slave to your violence
Look at all that you put me through
Got me hooked on the silence
I've been your slave and
I can't escape from

Lately I don't really know what's
Goin' on inside of me
I wake up everyday and deep
Depression strike me violently
Maybe it's in solitude but
People really bother me
I'm better off alone
I told myself I swore it solemnly
But honestly I'm feelin' like
My soul is confused
I guess the way that I grew up
Has left me prone to abuse
'Cause I been drinkin' and I mix it
With some coke and some shrooms
Inhaling smoke so I can hold it
'til I choke on the fumes
But I been livin' large, spittin' bars
Whippin' 'round in different cars
This is not a flex because
My happiness I disregard
Uh! This the shit that I dream 'bout
Ask my family, I peaced out
Just to get some racks but if not for that
Where the fuck would I be now?
I wake up and I could feel my heart pounding
Tell me what have I been running from? Me
Did the right thing and I still doubt it
Won't somebody fuckin' help me out

You! I'm a slave to your violence
Look at all that you put me through
Got me hooked on the silence
I've been your slave and
I can't escape from
You! I'm a slave to your violence
Look at all that you put me through
Got me hooked on the silence
I've been your slave and
I can't escape from you!